I suppose I could start off by sharing a bit more about myself, to see if anybody can relate or understand where I am coming from.
I have both Asperger's and schizophrenia going on. The latter is under control (thanks to medication), but the former is really a struggle.
I decided, a couple of years ago, that even though SSDI is my primary source of income these days, I was not going to be one of those people who shuts himself in his apartment and does nothing to improve his life. I go out and volunteer for causes I believe in, I work a PT job, and I have every intention of becoming a FT student as soon as the financial aid kicks in.
I tried going to the mental health circles, but too many of the people there like to knowingly engage in outrageous behavior and use their illness as an excuse - instead of going to a doctor and trying to improve their lives. I have no desire to associate with those sorts. I would rather surround myself with people who have healthy attitudes about how to live life, after all.
I know that, despite all I have going against me, I am basically a decent and moral person. I have good friends, a loving family, and a slowly expanding social life. I would love to find a good guy to share my life with, but that thought scares me as much as it appeals to me. Would I be asking too much of a loving man to accept me as a partner, with my history of mental illness? I wonder.....
I do my best to keep moving forward, to keep improving myself and to help improve the lives of those around me. Living life any other way makes little sense to me. True, I probably spend more time than I should playing video games, but every man has to have at least one vice - and that is mine.
So, I hope this post doesn't scare anybody away from me.
Take care, have a great Christmas. Going to the family in a couple of hours, really looking forward to that!