I've wanted to try wearing diapers for a long time now and, after coming across this site, was finally able to work up the nerve to buy some. (see my intro thread)
Well they came today.:havemail: I'm never home when the mail comes, so someone in my family picked up the package and just threw it on my bed. I buy stuff online all the time, so nobody thought anything of it. I was relieved to find that the package, although very soft and cushion-like, didn't have a single identifiable mark on it (thank you TBHG), and the cushioning could easily be mistaken for a small, well-packed, computer part (which is most often what I buy online). So no worries there.
What I need help with, is actually building up the nerve to put one on. As soon as I picked up the envelope and started opening it up, I started to get jumpy because 1.) I already know what's inside, and 2.) the sound of the plastic-like packaging being torn apart sounded like a diaper crinkle sound. Naturally, all of the packaging makes this sound and continues to do so as I finally catch sight of the diaper itself. I get more nervous still as I begin to pull one of the 2 sample diapers out. By the time I finally have one out in my hands, I can hardly keep them steady because I'm shaking so badly. Even with the door locked and my brother playing COD:MW2 in the next room, drowning out all possible audible sound from my room, I'm in a panic. I might just wet myself before I ever get it on.
I had the diaper half unfolded before I completely lost my nerve, and put it back in the packaging and hid it in a box under my bed.
I think I might just wait until the weekend, and wait for a time when nobody is home to actually try it out. I want to be able to enjoy the experience. I want to be able to walk around in just my diaper, and walk across the hall to bathroom to see what it looks like on me in the mirror, and what it will look like under various articles of clothing, and see how noticeable it is or how noticeable the sound is. I want to be calm and comfy when I do it.
I only have 2 right now (being that it was a sample pack from Bambino's) and don't want to waste them. Money is tight right now being the holidays and having just bought a car, so I can't really spend any more money on this sort of thing at the moment (even if it was only 7 bucks with free shipping).
...Grrr, I also don't want to wait till the weekend!
Got my diapers for the first time, and am too scared to put them on for fear of someone in the house finding out in some way.
So let me just ask you, "what was your first time putting on a diaper like?" (besides when you were a baby of course).