Early on my travels through ADISC, I have been very helpful to those who have issues with their sexual orientation. Now its your turn to do the same for me.
Early on in my childhood, I would be the kid in the class that was called a faggot due to certain actions that they do or perform in elementary school that brings attention. Back in 01, my Aspergers' was in full bloom and I used to chase girls a lot to get the popular one, in my old belief of being a popular white kid. However, my playful self would sometimes unknowingly chase boys and that would bring 5 years of pain and suffering throughout middle school. After middle school, I can say that my popularity has increased but I keep most of my links with my homies from the middle class and those who have stayed faithful to me. Up until 12th grade I believed that I was 100% straight. I had a 2 week relationship with a black girl who was all but faithful to me. (Now she has already had 2 kids and she is a year younger than me btw) In combination with my diaper fetish, I have been a person who many can describe as asexual. However for the past couple of months, my sexual dreams involving men have increased in prevalence. In addition to being attracted to gay porn, I have further seen that I cannot describe myself as straight for this. This has been my major internal conflict with me over the past two months as I cannot spot myself correctly into the sexual orientation spectrum. I know that I can be attracted to women and I have had a sexual dream in which I gave one of my friends head. That is why I can't see myself as gay. I would have labeled myself as bi-curious until I have noticed that I have been looking at more and more men lately. Stereotypically, I would be the definition of a straight teenager, and many things in my mind have conflicted with this. Now that I am a high school senior and at my peak sexuality levels, the stress is getting harder and harder. Currently, how I see myself, I would say that I can be in a relationship with both sexes and be attracted to both sexes in physical and sexual aspects but am still inconclusive about possibilities and ratios, if they actually exist. So pretty much I have written a book to say that as of now: I am tk7432, a bisexual, and I would say damn proud of it. But who knows.
I just ask for insightful information from a mature and diverse audience on how to take this from here. I am very appreciative of any help here and hope that I can find insightful and cohesive advice. Thanks.