This is a thought that has been on my mind lately, and I decided it was time to write it out.
After our recent encounters with AByHeaven and such, I have been thinking about this. I have been thinking about how some people put such a priority on their AB lives and not their real lives.
AByHeaven made me sad. He seemed such a loser, someone not happy with what he had and did not realize how lucky he was to have a family. I mean, I am alone. All it is is me and some stuffed killer whales. No girlfriend. No one to share my life with. You know that I would give ANYTHING to have a family to celebrate the holidays with.
After our encounter with him, he made me think about how so many think the lifestyle is where it is not when there is a whole world to explore. I have a life outside of the AB world, who here doesn't? AByHeaven made me think about what was wrong with things in our lifestyle.
I mean, who here really thinks that we have a shot of being a baby all the time and give up all our cares and our worries? Sorry to burst bubbles, but it's not gonna happen. Not by a long-shot, but some people like AByHeaven seem to think that is a priority. To me, it is an after-thought. All I want is a relationship with a girl, someone I can share my life with and MAYBE my AB side or her AB side with.
The man has it all, wife and kids yet he thought his AB life was more important. You know what I would give to have a family? I would give my soul. I hate being alone on the holidays and feeling like a fucking reject because girls don't give guys with Asperger's a chance.
AByHeaven made me think about what was wrong with certain parts of our lifestyle. I am not writing this because I am depressed or anything but because this has been on my mind. Why would someone put diapers over a good life? WHY? To me, he has it ALL while I live life alone. WHY sacrifice that for diapers, for God's sake?
That is the question at the moment. Who would prefer a diaper life than a normal life where we can live a life and maybe live also a diaper and AB lifestyle as well?
Go ahead and flame me, but this has been on my mind since our encounters with AByHeaven. And no, I am not depressed, I have just been thinking about this a lot