It is for me, anyway. I know addiction, and I am an addict.
I've read so many personal stories here. Thanks for all the honesty, btw. So many have embraced and enjoy this lifestyle. I am not one of them. I have not come to terms with it. I know I don't like liking it, though.
I'm curious if there is anyone here who has actually quit? Or does anyone know someone who has? I've only gone a year at most without breaking.
It seems that professional help is severely lacking in this arena. As I understand it, the most "help" I'd get is with the binge/purge cycle - promoting and encouraging a stable state of mind. That is not enough for me. As I said, I really want to stop. I am determined to find an answer. Any help/insight from other perspectives is appreciated.
FYI - I'm a straight, closet (obviously) DL but nothing else. The AB side of it doesn't interest me. Having been molested as a young child, I'd think it would, but no. Also, I was informed about the abuse in very little detail - too young to remember. I'm divorced, early 30's. Got married too young. She didn't know, btw.
I've tried everything I can think of to stop on my own and nothing has worked. So now I'm asking for help (first time to tell somebody). Thoughts?