Hi Guys and Girls
On so its 7:53am on a Sunday in Australia at the moment.
I just woke up after having a really strange dream.
I have thought now for about a year maybe more that i could have been abused as a child - nothing specifically makes me feel this way - except for when mum mentions on of dads business trips we all went on and i get a really weird warm feeling in my stomach.
So any way the dream....
So i was young in my dream - maybe 10 -12 years old. I was in my current house. (we have only been here for 1 year and a few months) I was alone for some reason in our media room down stairs and there was a man in there with me, sitting next to me.
Anyway for some reason i was holding his hand - then i get this feeling that i am unsafe and i let go of his hand and put it on my lap. This guy then puts his hand on my knee and slowing starts just rubbing his hand up my leg and back down to my knee. After a while he stars to get close to the inside of my leg.
This is where i am wondering if this dream represents my past somehow. because i didn't stop him from rubbing the in side of my leg..why??
A little while longer he is undoing my fly and is doing what i now know as fondling my penis and testicles. What makes me feel guilty is that i started (in my dream) to get an erection...
I would like it if admin could maybe stop those under 16 or 18 from reading this if that is possible.
But for those older i would love to hear your thoughts.. should i tell someone like mum ( dad is not around so the next guy is my older brother) or will this create unneeded tension.... i don't know why i feel guilty it was only a dream right?