My name is Andrew and I'm 21 years old.
I've been a DL for most of my life and I know that exact time I started to like diapers.
I was about 5 or 6, my parents were getting divorced (it was a rough divorce) and I happened upon an old package of diapers from when I was a baby. For some reason, I had an urge to wear the diapers. So I went to ask my mom if I could wear one around the house for fun. She was a little reluctant (because of was 5 or 6) but she said okay, but as long as I didn't goo to the bathroom in the diaper.
So I wore the diaper and loved the feeling. I remember sitting in my room at night watching TV with just a tshirt and diaper on. I loved the warm, soft feeling, and I loved the smooth plastic outside.
I went to sleep with the diaper on and wore the other ones in the package for as long as I could.
I was hooked and wanted to wear all the time.
Eventually the diapers ran out and that was it. But I couldn't stop my desire to wear.
On and off throughout the years I would steal diapers from my little cousins and try to squeeze into them. They never fit and I never got to wear them again.
I hoped to outgrow the desire. It would come and go, sometimes it would disappear for a long time.
I had the urge throughout my teens and would try to find ways that would allow me to wear diapers. I was often sick and had surgeries often. I would use that as an excuse and told my mother I probable won't be able to get up to go to the bathroom so I would need diapers. She never budged and thought it was kind of weird.
In my late teens the urge seemed to go away but now at 21 it's back again. I really don't like having it and I wished that it would just go away. But I just can't resist the soft, warm feeling.
Anyway, I wanted to get your opinions. Do you think if I were to buy one package of Goodnites and wear them everyday for 21 days, that I would get over the urge? I feel like if I just wear good fitting diapers for one last time and 24/7 for a few weeks that I can get it off my mind. And when I say 24/7 I don't mean using them as toilet, because then I might begin to lose bladder control, I mean using them as underwear.
Thanks so much for your help and time!