Right now I feel as if I am having my mid life crisis...I don't feel like doing anything, I should be doing some of my summer AP Homework my only thought to that is "Why bother"
I have a website is development right now for Tropico 3 I set a deadline for it to be done next friday bottom line...it looks really shitty and I just don't have the will to go fix it I just feel like "Fuck it, it is shit"
Same for people I talk to be it online or IR I feel irritable about talking to them for some reason and can think of no go topics to discuss.
For the last 13 hours I have had more intense thoughts about suicide, like looking around my house and place of work thinking about all the possible ways to make it as bloody and horrific as possible.
I am hungry and don't feel like making anything to eat b/c I don't see the point in it.
What do you think could be causing me to think this way? PLEASE...no "stop bitching" responses, I only want constructive and helpful ones.