I don't want to give an exact description of my masturbation ritual, and I'm sure no one wants me to. But there are a few details you need to know for this thread to make sense, so please bear with me.
Ever since I started masturbating, I've always done it by grabbing the front of my underwear and pulling it down. This puts my thumb in a position where it's pressing against the area between my legs, and pulls the waistband of my underwear tight around the area between my balls and my legs.
And over time I guess I've begun to associate the stimulation of those areas with sexual stimulation, and it's become sort of a fetish for me. I find it hard to masturbate without this nowadays; I can - and I try to sometimes to make sure I don't come totally dependent on it - but whenever I do I get a strong urge to grab my underwear and put it in this position.
And now it's evolved from this into really liking the sensation of anything thick and warm held tightly between my legs. Something like... diapers! I know this isn't the sole reason for my love of diapers - I liked them long before I even knew about masturbation. But I can't deny that it's somehow contributed.
So I have to wonder... do all fetishes - or indeed, do any fetishes - come about by associating them with sexual feelings? I doubt everyone here is a DL because they masturbated in diapers all the time when they were kids, but perhaps there could be some sexual experience that became associated with diapers?
And I also have to ask: does anyone else have some weird things they associate with masturbating that have evolved into a fetish, or is it just me?
And one more question: is there anyone here that studies psychology? If there is, is this actually how the mind works, or am I just making this all up?