I'm an 18 y/o female, I've been a bedwetter all my life. All the kids in my family and many of my cousins also were bedwetters, but I am the only one who has continued to wet for this many years. Over the years, I have come to enjoy the feeling of wearing a diaper, both at night when its dry and in the morning when its wet (unless it leaks, which feels really gross to me). I guess that classifies me as a "DL." Part of me wants to stop wetting the bed so that I can some day have a long term relationship with a man, but part of me dreads the day I stop wetting.
Obviously, my family knows about my wetting but no one really ever says anything about it. But I get really embarrassed when other people find out about or mention my wetting problem. My most embarrassing moment ever came just a few weeks ago and I feel the need to share it because it was so humiliating, but somehow I found it a little bit exciting too.
For many years, I have struggled with an eating disorder. (ED is unrelated to bedwetting, but therapist says the stress of each condition may exacerbate the other) I was forced to spend some time in an inpatient ED treatment center this summer by my parents. Obviously, the staff knew about my bedwetting problem, and this upset me even more than the fact that I had to be there. One of my first nights there, I was particularly upset and stressing and was allowed to take one of my xanax so I could calm down and sleep. I was woken up the next morning by a nurse so that I could change out of my diaper and clean up before breakfast and group therapy. I was still really groggy and out of it from the xanax, so the nurse helped me in the bathroom and out of my clothes. It turns out that for the first time EVER, I had gone #2 in my diaper while I was asleep. (probably a touch of diherrea or something) Wasn't a terrible mess, but I was so humiliated that the nurse had seen it. She took my soiled diaper and let me get in the shower where I cried from embarrassment, but also had butterflies in my stomach from excitement. Maybe somewhere deep down, I am a bit of a diaper exhibitionist??
Thanks for letting me share, this is my first post but I always enjoy reading the boards.
(ps. I am doing very well with my treatment, no need to be concerned )