Before I start, a quick guide to the education system in England:
Ages 4/5? to 16: Compulsary education.
16+: Do whatever you want, but a lot of people go to college to do A-Levels for 2 years, before going to university.
Anyway. I used to love school when I was younger, always did all my work eeand got really good marks, but when I got to high school (age 11-16) I was in a class away from all of my friends, and since I was both really shy and clever, I obviously got bullied. So I got into the habit of not doing any work, messing about in class, and even not attending a lot of the time, in an attempt to avoid it.
Fortunately, I still managed to get 8 GCSEs at grade A* - C (you generally need 5 at A* to C to get into college for A-Levels). Unfortunately, I carried this mentality over to college and thus ended up dropping out around Easter time.
The following year I went for a different course, and lasted about a month because I hated it, so the year after I tried A-Levels again. This time I lasted until Christmas. I just couldn't find the motivation to do any work, or even turn up half of the time. So I pretty much gave up, and started looking for a job. I claimed Jobseeker's Allowance, and after six months of that they send you on courses to help you find a job. Towards the end of this I learnt about a course called Access to Higher Education, which is a course aimed at adults wanting to get into university. It is only a year long, so I decided I wanted to do it.
So I applied for it to start last January, and I learned that they didn't do the subjects I wanted at that time, so I would have to wait til September or choose other subjects. I really didn't want to do anything other than Biology, Chemistry and Physics (the choice is rather limited - the sciences plus a few fake social sciences) so I decided to do another (easier) course from January to June. And.... I passed it! I did all the work, turned up, and I had a great time.
Then in September I started the Access course. It was great at first but I soon got back into my old habits -_-. I started to miss lessons, even full weeks at times, and come Christmas I was so far behind I had pretty much given up. I tried to keep going but it just wasn't happening... so I ended up quitting
Now I want to go back. I NEED to do something with my life and I know that I'm capable of it, I just need to find some motivation from somewhere but I just can't .
Apologies for the lengthy post. Anyway, my question is, has anybody been in a similar situation and overcome it? And if so, how did you find the motivation?
I don't want to be stuck in a dead end job