Tomorrow is my birthday, and I never really enjoy them. Part of it is that this will be the fourth year where I've been away from family and friends on my birthday, and part of me doesn't want to get any older. While I'm always telling myself I'm still young, I still tend to feel that I made mistakes, some big, some small; some too late to fix, and other that might just seem too late to fix.
And then there's being an AB. I din't want to grow up in the first place. How should someone who wants to be a baby again, if only in fantasy, feel about getting a year older?