Some thoughts that have been on my mind:
As I get older, and I read around online at various ABDL sites and I wonder how some people out there even have a life.
Seeing how many take things too far in the lifestyle makes me wonder why people would go as far as they do in it. Some live the lifestyle all the time, wear diapers and act as a baby all the time. I've seen pictures that make me wonder about the sanity of those people. Why they take it so far and not realize boundaries.
I wonder what they get out of it? I always wondered why the infamous and late Heidi Lynn did what she/he did in Phoenix. Was it to make a statement? Or was it to be different?
I have never understood why some people want to live as babies 24/7 and there are some that do. I have never understood what the appeal is. Sure part-time might be fun but I could never live it 24/7. I have too many adult interests, and I find those to be far more fun than being a baby all the time. Plus, I could not stand living without my Married... with Children episodes, or my dramas.
I wonder why they would allow themselves to give up all of their adult rights and live as a baby. It makes me think. What are they escaping and why do they want to be waited on hand and foot? I don't. I want to work HARD for what I have and maybe one day have a family.
I know many ABs and most have a sense of reality and separate fantasy from it. Unfortunately there are some that I have run into who want to take it too far for my tastes. I like to have a sense of reality and not live in fantasy worlds because those can easily destroy people if taken too far. I have had my battles with that and I realized that reality helps keep my feet on the ground.
I think a lot when I am out walking and when I am home alone. And lately, this has all been on my mind. Why do people do this? Spend their money on a fantasy world that is not going to happen unless they are lucky enough to find someone who is going to participate in it? I admit, AB is a part of me but it is not a BIG part of me as it once was when I was in my 20s.
I guess that as I have done more in my life the past few years, I have started to see that there is a whole world out there.
Oh, I am still AB, just not as much of one as some people are.