*NOTE* If you want to skip my rant/venting/thing, scroll to the bottom of this post to read a shortened version
You'd think that gender would be perhaps one of the most static things that you could carry with you in life. But no, apparently, I'm not to have that luxury. I suppose I checked that bag at around 12 but lost it when my flight landed at around 14.
I'm having issues with gender identity. What can I say? I have no idea what the hell is going on in my head aside from the fact that something is. As you can probably tell, it's not exactly the simplest thing in the word to solve, add all of my other teenage drama onto the pile and we've got quite the situation, I suppose.
It's just... Frustrating, I guess would be the right word. It's not every day that you think you might be transgendered. Well, for me it is at this point. Too. Much. To. Handle!
Starting with that whole cross-dressing thing, I just figured I was getting into yet another obscure fetish and lifestyle. I mean cross-dressing's just another kink, right?
Well now it's evolved into something more serious, seriously. I no I didn't want to grow up and just become another NORP (Hell, I don't even want to grow up at all), but I never expected this to happen. Wearing panties and skirts is so much less constricting, wearing a bra and stuffing it to simulate that I've got boobs feels, well, right. And everything in between.
I see yuri pictures, two girls kissing each other for instance, and it looks really, really adorable. I see that picture and just get this huge emotional feeling, like I want to be one of those girls in that picture, so beautiful and sweet. I feel like I want to be the little girl!
I know it may sound like I've got this all figured out, but I just don't know. I just don't featherbed jig-ing know. Everything looks laid out to me, but I can't seem to put two and two together! Fakensht this is frustrating
God this sounds horribly written. Maybe I'm just being my worst critic like always, but I digress to something more important.
I don't know what my brain is telling me. I think I might be transgendered. I know I'm a cross-dresser, I know I like many girly things, and I know that I feel a strong emotional connection with many girls, real and fictional.
Can someone who's been through this kind of thing (or anyone at all, really, I won't be picky) give me some advice?