Hi there folks!
I have spoken to many people in the IRC and have posted on here now and again. I just wanted to jot down some of my thoughts on some recent experiences of mine – Changing the Diaper – going to the other side.
I have always considered myself to be a DL since my early teens and I have loved to wear and use nappies. I just enjoyed wearing them, the feel, smell, experience of wetting etc.
However, during wearing some other feelings would crop these include; security, enjoyment, regression, wondering what it would be like to be ‘caught’ in a wet/messy nappy (by caregiver of course I don’t mean found out!). It was then I began explore my AB side – what does this mean? I had a quick peak of some AB stories and began to form some different AB role plays (with myself as the AB) and I can honestly say I was ‘happy’ with this.
However, I am not sure what has changed; but my AB side has changed. It all started when I began chatting too and role playing with another adisc member. I offered to be the part of ‘care giver’ which then changed into ‘big brother’. I can say that it is going well and I am enjoying it. Even though this is the first time I do feel comfortable in this role and the online role play situation.
The question is – why the side switch? How and why did this happen?
But why am I posting this I can hear you say? I just wanted to note down some of my feelings/discuss some things about ‘being on the other side’. I am also wondering is there a cycle that we go through?
AB --> then purge --> then switch roles.
Or is it a natural progression? From AB to carer? (weeks/months/years?)
Or do some people just prefer one role and stick to it never to change?
Or can we switch sides with and for no apparent reason?
I am not sure? Anyway thanks for listening adisc.