DonnieHendrix
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- Adult Baby
- Diaper Lover
Hey
I’m not so sure what I’m doing here really, I guess hoping to find some positive energy in the form of community.
I’m from the UK (south west) in my 30’s married with kids, struggling to keep us afloat.
Interests I guess I could say gaming and reading books though I haven’t really done either for a long time.
I used to play in a little band with friends.
As far as being AB/DL goes I know I’m my heart I am but that’s as far as I think I will ever get. My wife intially told me it wasn’t a problem and she would support me in whatever I do, of course that was before marriage. Now on the odd occasion where I have worn a shop bought pull-up (when I’ve been brave enough to buy them) she has ridiculed and humiliated me in a nasty way, calling me pathetic and a freak. She has used my desires to blackmail me saying I could never leave her as she would tell everyone my secret. I feel so trapped and alone knowing I will never be able to enjoy these urges, only be ashamed of them.
For a few years I’ve secretly visited abdl sites and it just seems like a magical world I would love to be part of, I get kind of jealous seeing people who are living that life so accepted and even have partners or close friends join in. I would give anything to have a ‘mummy’ to care for me and change me and cuddle me and make me feel safe, but I know that just isn’t going to happen for me.
I guess it’s not hard for me to see why I am this way, I had to grow up quickly to look after my siblings. And my submissive nature would lend itself so well to being babied. But alas the obedient husband is the role I have.
I’m hoping maybe talking to people here I could swap some of my shame for confidence and perhaps one day even fight my corner a little and even get some enjoyment from my odd desires.
Sorry this has been a terrible intro hasn’t it, properly far too down in the dumps. It just kind of spilled out as I typed. I understand if it violates terms, please advise.
I’m not so sure what I’m doing here really, I guess hoping to find some positive energy in the form of community.
I’m from the UK (south west) in my 30’s married with kids, struggling to keep us afloat.
Interests I guess I could say gaming and reading books though I haven’t really done either for a long time.
I used to play in a little band with friends.
As far as being AB/DL goes I know I’m my heart I am but that’s as far as I think I will ever get. My wife intially told me it wasn’t a problem and she would support me in whatever I do, of course that was before marriage. Now on the odd occasion where I have worn a shop bought pull-up (when I’ve been brave enough to buy them) she has ridiculed and humiliated me in a nasty way, calling me pathetic and a freak. She has used my desires to blackmail me saying I could never leave her as she would tell everyone my secret. I feel so trapped and alone knowing I will never be able to enjoy these urges, only be ashamed of them.
For a few years I’ve secretly visited abdl sites and it just seems like a magical world I would love to be part of, I get kind of jealous seeing people who are living that life so accepted and even have partners or close friends join in. I would give anything to have a ‘mummy’ to care for me and change me and cuddle me and make me feel safe, but I know that just isn’t going to happen for me.
I guess it’s not hard for me to see why I am this way, I had to grow up quickly to look after my siblings. And my submissive nature would lend itself so well to being babied. But alas the obedient husband is the role I have.
I’m hoping maybe talking to people here I could swap some of my shame for confidence and perhaps one day even fight my corner a little and even get some enjoyment from my odd desires.
Sorry this has been a terrible intro hasn’t it, properly far too down in the dumps. It just kind of spilled out as I typed. I understand if it violates terms, please advise.