2Little2Late
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Not too sure where I should of started this thread, I decided to go with my heart on this one and place it here So if anyone has some time to spare, please read this with an open heart as I am struggling with a heartache as I type. Fighting off not to cry but it's not working. Dang emotional me.
Willing to share my story in private messages if you are wanting to know more about me. Without going into extensive detail here, I will just say discovering what things have made me happy since I found this forum, those things that make me happy are also bringing back some damaged feelings along with them.
Granted my childhood wasn't easy, I had a rough start in life (which I was pronounced dead when I was born) that lead to many learning difficulties, a broken drug infested environment at home, and to top it all off, I suffered from child abuse off and on up until I was 17 which turned into worse. Even as an adult I ended up in an emotional and mental situation that nearly cost me my life a couple years ago.
Long story short, found comfort in a favorite blanket as a kid, a stuffed dog my uncle gave me as a kid, and for many years a plush bear my mom and dad bought me for Christmas before they divorced when I was 16.
So as I am finding out the Bear still brings me great comfort, I want to be cuddled and taken care of more, a new onesie I bought within the last month is comfortable, and the pacifier is oddly soothing at times, Diapers are a new concept to me as I am in mixed emotions about still.
So, the more I find the little girl wants to come out to play and re explore this world through different eyes, the more I am okay with it one minute and the next I get terrible flashbacks to my childhood when it went abusive and I feel that disappointment, embarrassment, shame, guilt, and worst yet, heart ache.
Just needed somewhere to turn and this is my only outlet. This is the first day I have actually opened up and that could clue into what I am feeling now. And I just don't know where I can turn or what I can do now.
Thank you all for reading and have a wonderful day.
Willing to share my story in private messages if you are wanting to know more about me. Without going into extensive detail here, I will just say discovering what things have made me happy since I found this forum, those things that make me happy are also bringing back some damaged feelings along with them.
Granted my childhood wasn't easy, I had a rough start in life (which I was pronounced dead when I was born) that lead to many learning difficulties, a broken drug infested environment at home, and to top it all off, I suffered from child abuse off and on up until I was 17 which turned into worse. Even as an adult I ended up in an emotional and mental situation that nearly cost me my life a couple years ago.
Long story short, found comfort in a favorite blanket as a kid, a stuffed dog my uncle gave me as a kid, and for many years a plush bear my mom and dad bought me for Christmas before they divorced when I was 16.
So as I am finding out the Bear still brings me great comfort, I want to be cuddled and taken care of more, a new onesie I bought within the last month is comfortable, and the pacifier is oddly soothing at times, Diapers are a new concept to me as I am in mixed emotions about still.
So, the more I find the little girl wants to come out to play and re explore this world through different eyes, the more I am okay with it one minute and the next I get terrible flashbacks to my childhood when it went abusive and I feel that disappointment, embarrassment, shame, guilt, and worst yet, heart ache.
Just needed somewhere to turn and this is my only outlet. This is the first day I have actually opened up and that could clue into what I am feeling now. And I just don't know where I can turn or what I can do now.
Thank you all for reading and have a wonderful day.