Steven1248
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- Adult Baby
- Diaper Lover
- Sissy
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hello my reel name is steven rodefer. i remember bein in diapers wen i was bout 2 yeers old. wen i was 3 & i put on reel underware i reelized that diapers were lot comfy & i wanted 2 go back in them. i wuld steel diapers but wen i got caught i got paddled, switched, & put in corner. wen i was 4 i started admiring girl clothes, theyre long hair, & theyre scent so much that i started 2 want 2 b a girl. i told my momy & she said 1 i wuld go 2 hell & 2 she wuld put me in a foster home cuz she despise gays, bi's, crossdressers, & lesbians, & transgenders. at age 5 i started walkin/running like a girl, sitting like a girl, & talkin like i had a girl voice. i still kept steeling pullups & girl clothes from my babysitter's granddaughters but wen i got caught i wuld get a beeting from my stepdady. in 2007 i was riding my bike home from school. i thought there was a car bhind me so i got ovr a little so i wuldnt get hit. but then there was a car comin my way. i tryed 2 get on the sidewalk but i culdnt turn my handles. i started 2 panik. the car honked & made me use my body 2 slide sideways & made the car rammed in my back so hard i had trouble breething & lettin my voice out in pain. the pain is still with me a little but also since then i has potty on myself witout knowin i had 2 go. but i did it cuz momy bought the bike & if there was 1 dent in it i wuld b in trouble. the person was bout 2 call hospital but i lyed 2 them sayin i was ok. i walked my bike the rest the way home evn tho i was hurtin so bad. momy & stepdady was struggling wit bills i jus told them i had a backache. at age 17 wen i got 2 highschool my momy put me a jrotc 2 get me 2 b a man. it was a tough 2 yeers experience. on my 18th birthday my dady finally made contact with me wich i hasnt seen in 16 yeers. my sister told him bout me & he told me i culd liv wit him. so i left my momy bhind & i felt so bad bout that i cryd on my jerney. wen i finally got 2 my dady he sent me 2 a rehab hospital called saint simons by the sea. aftr i got out i told my dady that i still wanted 2 do these things & he told me i was a mistake & cast me on the streets. i made contact wit my momy & she came & got me but i had 2 liv wit my babysitter cuz my stepdady didnt want me in his house. i told my babysitter wat i wanted 2 do & she jus made fun of me. she got me bak in school but i was kicked out 2nd semester of my 12th grade yeer bcuz i told them this. i started 2 try 2 end my life by jumpin off buildings cuz i thought all hopes were lost. at age 24 i found a game ware i can b who i am in reel life. the game is called second life. that game was my happy zone. i felt most stress slip away. i play as a diapered kid girl. i met sum1 on there who told me they wuld help me. wen i liv wit them they helped me get on disability. i 1st had 2 do sum test. turn out even tho i just turned 27 on may 10th they said i had a mind of a 6 yeer old & i had 2 has sum1 manage my money plus i cant liv on my own. i sign a paper makin these peeple my payee & aaftr that they told me that sum theropist i nevr met said i culd not b a girl or ware diapers. we only ate once a day & i started steelin food like raw eggs, cakemix, sprinkles, pounds of suger cuz i kept gettin hungry. they told me i was hurtin them doin that so i ended up goin back 2 end my life. my last attemp was eatin a full bottle on antacids. they sent me 2 a rehab hospital called beacon behavioral health. the hospital knew they were takin advantage of me so insted of sendin me back they sent me 2 a group home im at rite now in feb 23rd 2018. i made the group home owner my new payee in april 23rd i think i dont has a good memory. but the peeple i use 2 liv with got my money 4 march & april so now i 2 months bhind rent. the rent a month is $525 plus extra $100 4 food. i was luky gettin $40 a cuple weeks ago. i got so excited i bought a case of rootbeer, a big box of nutty bars, 2 big bags of lays flamin hot, a zippo liter, liter fluid, bodywash, a bottle of baja blast moutain dew, & pak of cigarettes. i wil probly get that much agin nex month but wat i reely want 2 do is get a laptop so i can go back 2 second life & hav this stress go away agin. i tryed findin oddjobs 2 get the money 2 get a laptop but cuz i mentally handicap no1 will giv me a shot. i also met sum1 on facebook who said they'll cum get me & ill get 2 b who i am. my problem is i trust peeple b4 i meet them. i want 2 beleeve this person & i want him 2 b my ABDL daddy cuz i want 2 b free so badly. it hurts me so much that rite now i in teers. i in teers evryday but since i liv wit 12 other men i has 2 try 2 get it 2tether. i had so much experience wit so many discriminaters that it unbareable. if this person is tellin the truth then good but if it another lie then i mite go back 2 ending myself again. all i want is either a laptop or b wit sum1 who will infact let me b me. i do anything 2 b free but i will not suk boy's u kno wat. :,(