TabulaRasa2017
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Hello my little friends,
I've recently been to my first ABDL/littles event and met some wonderful people in real life. I'm going to describe a few things briefly and vaguely because it was a special experience for me and I shared some intimate things with others that are best kept private. But what I wanted to share was the overall feeling of this for me and maybe give some hope to those of you out there who, like me, can be scared of taking such a step.
I went to this event because I was kindly encouraged to go by two wonderful people I met through FetLife. They told me what to expect and how to find them at the event, and that was huge because I felt like I wasn't going to something blind. The event was held in a private building run by a kink/fetish society. There was a mixture of BDSM and little stuff, and people came as they were and acted how they wanted with ground rules such as asking for permission for everything, and no drugs or alcohol were allowed. When I first arrived, I was able to find my virtual friends and become real life friends with them which was wonderful. There were many people there from all walks of life and from across the spectrum of ABDL that you see here on ADISC, from people like me for whom this is sexual, to asexual, trans, disabled, you name it. So it was a very open and welcoming type of vibe, and no one was excluded. For the first time in my life, I wore my diapers and outfit in front of other human beings, I sucked on my paci, and took my teddy with me everywhere.
A number of major things struck me. First, there was a lot of joy - here were all sorts of people who have to hide this part of themselves away now free to be this part of who they are for a few hours with no judgement. Second, I never realized how much this part of me has been so badly neglected because it felt wonderful and freeing. Third, I now know for a fact this is part of my sexuality and it is a need and I am okay -- I just need to find a like-minded partner who will get and cherish this part of who I am. Fourth, I experienced some things I never, ever thought I would ever experience in my life and that was amazing - but I'm keeping those private to keep them special.
For the vanilla people in my life who know about this part of me, I came up with a way to describe this that I hope makes sense if you're not wired like me. It feels like a first kiss. So, as I told them, imagine you've really wanted to kiss a boy or girl your whole life but everyone else thinks its weird and even though it's what you crave so badly you feel terribly ashamed about this desire. Then, after decades of not being able to kiss anyone, you finally have a chance and not only does it feel wonderful but no one judges you and you feel no shame or remorse. That's what this event felt like to me. I got to wear my diapers in front of others without having to worry. I got to hold my teddy and I had people speak to me like a 2 or 3 year old boy and it was heavenly. It was my first kiss -- my first real ABDL experience.
I suppose the biggest take home message for me, and that I share with all of you, is that it's never too late to go out there and be brave and find your people. The experience touched me so much that when I returned home I broke down crying ... but they were tears of joy and release after all of these years of being alone in the dark with this, that I actually went out there and met like-minded people. And that I was accepted.
So, I'm no sage and I don't know what will happen next. But, and I know I sound like a broken record, if not for ADISC, I'm not sure I would have evolved to the point where I did something like this. Being part of this community where I felt welcome and validated was so huge I can't even properly put it into words. I'm not a religious man, but thank God for ADISC, honestly! FetLife is such a hard nut to crack ... once you crack it, it gets easier, but at first it's pretty goddamn scary and my first forays into Fet were not the best. But when I joined ADISC, it was such a different and welcoming experience ... so thank you!
One last tidbit. If you can accept this part of who you are and you want to move to the next step with it, then you have to meet people in real life. On a fluke, I met some people at a gaming group I belong to and that sort of reopened the doors of FetLife for me, which in turn started me on my most recent path. But when you can, where you can, try to get out there and meet people in real life (as scary as it is, because at first it is scary) because it really opens your eyes and let's you know you're not alone in the world. And for me, it let me know what everyone has already told me here at ADISC -- that I'm okay and I can love this part of me. And I do.
Be well, everyone.
Tab
I've recently been to my first ABDL/littles event and met some wonderful people in real life. I'm going to describe a few things briefly and vaguely because it was a special experience for me and I shared some intimate things with others that are best kept private. But what I wanted to share was the overall feeling of this for me and maybe give some hope to those of you out there who, like me, can be scared of taking such a step.
I went to this event because I was kindly encouraged to go by two wonderful people I met through FetLife. They told me what to expect and how to find them at the event, and that was huge because I felt like I wasn't going to something blind. The event was held in a private building run by a kink/fetish society. There was a mixture of BDSM and little stuff, and people came as they were and acted how they wanted with ground rules such as asking for permission for everything, and no drugs or alcohol were allowed. When I first arrived, I was able to find my virtual friends and become real life friends with them which was wonderful. There were many people there from all walks of life and from across the spectrum of ABDL that you see here on ADISC, from people like me for whom this is sexual, to asexual, trans, disabled, you name it. So it was a very open and welcoming type of vibe, and no one was excluded. For the first time in my life, I wore my diapers and outfit in front of other human beings, I sucked on my paci, and took my teddy with me everywhere.
A number of major things struck me. First, there was a lot of joy - here were all sorts of people who have to hide this part of themselves away now free to be this part of who they are for a few hours with no judgement. Second, I never realized how much this part of me has been so badly neglected because it felt wonderful and freeing. Third, I now know for a fact this is part of my sexuality and it is a need and I am okay -- I just need to find a like-minded partner who will get and cherish this part of who I am. Fourth, I experienced some things I never, ever thought I would ever experience in my life and that was amazing - but I'm keeping those private to keep them special.
For the vanilla people in my life who know about this part of me, I came up with a way to describe this that I hope makes sense if you're not wired like me. It feels like a first kiss. So, as I told them, imagine you've really wanted to kiss a boy or girl your whole life but everyone else thinks its weird and even though it's what you crave so badly you feel terribly ashamed about this desire. Then, after decades of not being able to kiss anyone, you finally have a chance and not only does it feel wonderful but no one judges you and you feel no shame or remorse. That's what this event felt like to me. I got to wear my diapers in front of others without having to worry. I got to hold my teddy and I had people speak to me like a 2 or 3 year old boy and it was heavenly. It was my first kiss -- my first real ABDL experience.
I suppose the biggest take home message for me, and that I share with all of you, is that it's never too late to go out there and be brave and find your people. The experience touched me so much that when I returned home I broke down crying ... but they were tears of joy and release after all of these years of being alone in the dark with this, that I actually went out there and met like-minded people. And that I was accepted.
So, I'm no sage and I don't know what will happen next. But, and I know I sound like a broken record, if not for ADISC, I'm not sure I would have evolved to the point where I did something like this. Being part of this community where I felt welcome and validated was so huge I can't even properly put it into words. I'm not a religious man, but thank God for ADISC, honestly! FetLife is such a hard nut to crack ... once you crack it, it gets easier, but at first it's pretty goddamn scary and my first forays into Fet were not the best. But when I joined ADISC, it was such a different and welcoming experience ... so thank you!
One last tidbit. If you can accept this part of who you are and you want to move to the next step with it, then you have to meet people in real life. On a fluke, I met some people at a gaming group I belong to and that sort of reopened the doors of FetLife for me, which in turn started me on my most recent path. But when you can, where you can, try to get out there and meet people in real life (as scary as it is, because at first it is scary) because it really opens your eyes and let's you know you're not alone in the world. And for me, it let me know what everyone has already told me here at ADISC -- that I'm okay and I can love this part of me. And I do.
Be well, everyone.
Tab
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