What am I??

Ok, this post my be a little PG-13 or even rated R depending on your values...

I've been on this board now for a few months because I love wearing diapers, but the main reason I love wearing diapers is sexual.
Now I'm a straight man coming into "midlife" and married to a women that knows about my DL side but doesn't like to acknowledge it unless she's had a few drinks and we are ready to "get together", and we really don't "get together" enough for my taste (once or twice a month) so I find myself even more attracted to wearing recently.
I can remember as a kid using my paper route money to buy packs of diapers when I was around 12 or 13 years old, but again it was always with a sexual endgame, and once I "got what I wanted out of them" I would feel ashamed and embarrassed by what I had just done.
I also have another side to myself. I LOVE wearing women's undergarments. Panties and bras, slips, the stuff that feels good when you rub up against it. Whenever I don't have the time to wear a diaper for a long period (I don't want to waste the few I actually get) I will use my wife's panties to for full my needs.
I love the feeling of her girly clothes against my skin and I even like to watch trans porn but I know I'm a straight guy but yet still love to wear diapers to for full my own needs. All of this of course is until I for full my needs and then It's almost like sitting in a chair in shell shock wondering whats wrong with me while I try to clean up and hide everything I've just done.
I have no idea what I'm supposed to "classify" myself as, as I find myself getting aroused by many different things these days.

Anyone else care to take a guess???.......Just wondering if I'm alone and a freak here....

It sounds to me like you are a diaper lover/cross dresser. You could be classified as sissy, but often that's associated with wearing diapers and regressing as a baby girl, from male to female. You haven't indicated anything that would identify as AB.

Yeah, just a run of the mill DL, CD, sexual deviant, Enjoy! its harming no one!

aleakyboomboom said:

Yeah, just a run of the mill DL, CD, sexual deviant, Enjoy! its harming no one!

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Not sure what CD is but thanks!!

There’s a lot of deviants that like to wear diapers you’re in good company.

CD = Cross Dresser.
Ya Know, just say F*kt and enjoy, I've always found it odd, for example the GLBT community, seek to define themselves by this label, then demand society accepts them as GLBT, when the bulk of society actually does not give a flying f*k about how they define themselves.
f/ex, Dave is gay, fine whatever, most accept, he is a gay bloke, most don't really care, other than Dave who keeps banging on and on about it.

This need to be aligned with some label is counter productive.

I actually hate this AB/DL label.

I'm a bloke like you who likes nappies, wearing womens clothes now and again, (mostly for the feel) love pvc, latex etc. I'm a straight bloke, oh and a sexual deviant

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KrlzaBNgz-M
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aleakyboomboom said:

CD = Cross Dresser.
Ya Know, just say F*kt and enjoy, I've always found it odd, for example the GLBT community, seek to define themselves by this label, then demand society accepts them as GLBT, when the bulk of society actually does not give a flying f*k about how they define themselves.
f/ex, Dave is gay, fine whatever, most accept, he is a gay bloke, most don't really care, other than Dave who keeps banging on and on about it.

This need to be aligned with some label is counter productive.

I actually hate this AB/DL label.

I'm a bloke like you who likes nappies, wearing womens clothes now and again, (mostly for the feel) love pvc, latex etc. I'm a straight bloke, oh and a sexual deviant

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THANKS!!! Nice to see there's at least one person who feels like this!!

Its a bit like Vegas, that happens in Vegas stays in Vegas, if you happen to wank off (or not) in a nappy and some womens clothes, then it stays there.
Well in the Diaper anyway, enjoy your fun, don't be pigeon holed into any category.

aleakyboomboom said:

Its a bit like Vegas, that happens in Vegas stays in Vegas, if you happen to wank off (or not) in a nappy and some womens clothes, then it stays there.
Well in the Diaper anyway, enjoy your fun, don't be pigeon holed into any category.

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I like that idea, THANK YOU!!

You and I have the same interest. I’m straight and married to a woman, but love tonwear diapers or panties for sexual gratification. I have never gone beyond panties, but wouldnt be opposed to it. Also, I too have found myself aroused by trans porn just like you. And also like you, my wife can’t stand me wearing diapers.

It sounds like ABDL doesn't apply. You're more of a SD (sexual diaper fetish), and CD (cross dresser).

PaddedInPuyallup said:

You and I have the same interest. I’m straight and married to a woman, but love tonwear diapers or panties for sexual gratification. I have never gone beyond panties, but wouldnt be opposed to it. Also, I too have found myself aroused by trans porn just like you. And also like you, my wife can’t stand me wearing diapers.

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It sounds like use three are exactly the same haha I too would wear and use diapers for sexual gratification and then feel ashamed afterwards... I too love women’s panties but only the cotton ones.. I would wear them or put them over my face or something... and several years ago I discovered I loved trans porn... but also I am a straight male.. never ever once was curious about hooking up with a guy. But I also wouldn’t consider myself a cross dresser. As it’s only the panties I like. I love like skirts or dresses or small shirts... anyways it’s cool to find three people that are pretty much wired exactly like me haha

Yeah, it’s good to hear that there are others. I am only interested in satin panties for whatever reason. Also, I see you like Nintendo. They are actually a customer of mine and I’m there a lot at their Washington facilities. I turn into a big kid when I’m there.

Thanks everyone for the responses it helps to know that you're not alone!