It's basically binge and purge. It's technically not normal, and most people would see it as weird, gross, or not right. You were taught that diapers made you less of a human when you were potty trained. That they're for babies. Then all of that mixed with the stigma and you're just believing that it's wrong.
You just need to do the opposite, wearing diapers isn't wrong, if they're not only made for babies and old people, you don't have to have a medical excuse to wear diapers.
You pretty much have to dismiss those thoughts as they come. I also think that the guilt never really goes away. It's just how you deal with it that makes you mentally healthier about it.
Sent from my SM-G955U using Tapatalk