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I'm new to this community, but certainly not new to ABDL among other fantasies. I resisted posting here for a while, but I think now is a good time.
I'm in the beginning process of accepting my fetishes/fantasies, which I know takes time and has a lot of shame involved in it. I feel that the best way to reach that point is to start connecting with other people in the community.
The thought of wearing a ballerina outfit excites me to no end, among other women's apparel. I haven't tried it yet, but am very curious. For me I think it's something that just comes and goes, it's not with me 24/7. I don't feel any need to cross-dress in public, so I think that makes it easier.
On an intellectual level, I know there is nothing wrong with me. I'm aware that fetishes are not diseases and they are healthy to indulge in. On the other hand, there is still that underlying subconscious belief that I am somehow a freak and there is still a great deal of shame toward it. I am working on accepting myself and my fantasies.
The good news is, I know that these feelings of shame are very normal, and as I connect with other people, I will internalize the fact that I am not a freak and just another human being. Over time, I know that the shame will start to dissolve. It's just going to take time.
I think another thing is the fact that I have lots of different fantasies. I am single right now, but I have this fear that finding a girl who is going to accept diapers, bondage, and cross-dressing is going to be near impossible. I need to figure out what I need and what I am willing to live without.
Thanks for reading!
I'm in the beginning process of accepting my fetishes/fantasies, which I know takes time and has a lot of shame involved in it. I feel that the best way to reach that point is to start connecting with other people in the community.
The thought of wearing a ballerina outfit excites me to no end, among other women's apparel. I haven't tried it yet, but am very curious. For me I think it's something that just comes and goes, it's not with me 24/7. I don't feel any need to cross-dress in public, so I think that makes it easier.
On an intellectual level, I know there is nothing wrong with me. I'm aware that fetishes are not diseases and they are healthy to indulge in. On the other hand, there is still that underlying subconscious belief that I am somehow a freak and there is still a great deal of shame toward it. I am working on accepting myself and my fantasies.
The good news is, I know that these feelings of shame are very normal, and as I connect with other people, I will internalize the fact that I am not a freak and just another human being. Over time, I know that the shame will start to dissolve. It's just going to take time.
I think another thing is the fact that I have lots of different fantasies. I am single right now, but I have this fear that finding a girl who is going to accept diapers, bondage, and cross-dressing is going to be near impossible. I need to figure out what I need and what I am willing to live without.
Thanks for reading!