SometimesAdult
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- Diaper Lover
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I am currently "all in" and am wearing nearly 24/7. I started in June of this year. I still have the freedom to not use, and don't use when I am at an event with family and friends.
I worry about a couple of things. I do not want to lose the ability to choose over time (while my urologist claims that there will not be any long term physiological changes, I think that there could be changes in brain signals that would have to be undone or retrained). I find that I spend a lot of time thinking about it, and surfing the net to find products I think I will like. I work from home and stay home more than I should. Frankly, I am fairly obsessed.
Do other people experience the same thing? Have I crossed a line? It seems that a lot of others with this lifestyle are more relaxed about it.
I talked to my therapist about it and it was a disaster. She didn't get it, and was not willing to learn. I stopped discussing it because I don't want to report when and if I was using, and discussing it means that I have to take steps to change my behavior. I am not ready to stop, and the times I might be willing to try, my stash is too big to walk away from. Some people say that this need is hardwired and even if we stop, we will need to return. This has been in my psychological history as far back as I can remember. I feel like a diaper junky.
What say you?
I worry about a couple of things. I do not want to lose the ability to choose over time (while my urologist claims that there will not be any long term physiological changes, I think that there could be changes in brain signals that would have to be undone or retrained). I find that I spend a lot of time thinking about it, and surfing the net to find products I think I will like. I work from home and stay home more than I should. Frankly, I am fairly obsessed.
Do other people experience the same thing? Have I crossed a line? It seems that a lot of others with this lifestyle are more relaxed about it.
I talked to my therapist about it and it was a disaster. She didn't get it, and was not willing to learn. I stopped discussing it because I don't want to report when and if I was using, and discussing it means that I have to take steps to change my behavior. I am not ready to stop, and the times I might be willing to try, my stash is too big to walk away from. Some people say that this need is hardwired and even if we stop, we will need to return. This has been in my psychological history as far back as I can remember. I feel like a diaper junky.
What say you?