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So I don't know if this is the appropriate place to post this, but I feel as though I need to vent or else I'm going to explode. I want to preface this post by saying I don't want pity or anyone to think this is a woe is me tale, I'm just ranting because I literally have no one close to talk to and it hurts.
So this weekend, unfortunately, marked the end of one of the most amazing, accepting, and dare I say perfect relationships of my adult life. I thought I had found the one, the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with. She was even accepting of my little side. Admittedly she was a little weirded out, but she never made me feel less as a person. The flip side to what appears to be a rather smooth and amazing relationship is my family. Long story short my family hated her. They were jealous and hated that I turned to her instead of them for my comfort. My mother was especially problematic, wouldn't engage my now EX, blamed her for me and my brother's bad relationship, and hated the fact I talked to her every night. Amongst that hatred, my brother decided to get jealous as well. He, having had a brief 2-week fling with my now EX couldn't stand the fact we were together. The upsetting part is I asked him before me and my EX dated if he was ok with it. He said yes. I guess I shouldn't have trusted my brother. He constantly harassed my EX, spread stuff about me being a little on campus so to cause my EX turmoil and ridicule, and even told people I know and still talk to he was, on orders from my parents, doing what he could to break me and my EX apart.
As you can tell by the start of this post, that is exactly what happened this Sunday. She couldn't take the hate any longer. She felt as though she was the problem and as though she was tearing me from my family. So she left me. She left me still telling me she cared and that's why she had to leave. I don't know how to feel. I hurt, it burns, and dare I say it, I feel as though I want to die. 1 1/2 years down the drain due to my family. Of course, they won't admit fault. I just don't know what to feel or how to solve this problem. I fear I have lost her for good. I fear as though there is no rebound. I fear that I can never trust my family again. I don't know what to do and I'm lost.
Anyway, thanks for listening to my rant and tale of woe. I just felt that I needed to write and get this off my chest. I hope everyone is going to have a good Thanksgiving, I know I won't be. Thanks yall, goodnight.
So this weekend, unfortunately, marked the end of one of the most amazing, accepting, and dare I say perfect relationships of my adult life. I thought I had found the one, the one I was going to spend the rest of my life with. She was even accepting of my little side. Admittedly she was a little weirded out, but she never made me feel less as a person. The flip side to what appears to be a rather smooth and amazing relationship is my family. Long story short my family hated her. They were jealous and hated that I turned to her instead of them for my comfort. My mother was especially problematic, wouldn't engage my now EX, blamed her for me and my brother's bad relationship, and hated the fact I talked to her every night. Amongst that hatred, my brother decided to get jealous as well. He, having had a brief 2-week fling with my now EX couldn't stand the fact we were together. The upsetting part is I asked him before me and my EX dated if he was ok with it. He said yes. I guess I shouldn't have trusted my brother. He constantly harassed my EX, spread stuff about me being a little on campus so to cause my EX turmoil and ridicule, and even told people I know and still talk to he was, on orders from my parents, doing what he could to break me and my EX apart.
As you can tell by the start of this post, that is exactly what happened this Sunday. She couldn't take the hate any longer. She felt as though she was the problem and as though she was tearing me from my family. So she left me. She left me still telling me she cared and that's why she had to leave. I don't know how to feel. I hurt, it burns, and dare I say it, I feel as though I want to die. 1 1/2 years down the drain due to my family. Of course, they won't admit fault. I just don't know what to feel or how to solve this problem. I fear I have lost her for good. I fear as though there is no rebound. I fear that I can never trust my family again. I don't know what to do and I'm lost.
Anyway, thanks for listening to my rant and tale of woe. I just felt that I needed to write and get this off my chest. I hope everyone is going to have a good Thanksgiving, I know I won't be. Thanks yall, goodnight.