This maybe controversial opinion but your mom your aunt and any woman you meet in this world has more experience about diapers then you ever will , why because they have been using pads and tampons to absorb a bodily waste since nowadays menstruation starts as early as 10 or 11 , most people dont consider them equal i do , if its absorbent and artificially keeps your clothes clean and preserves your dignity by absorbing or containing a bodily waste ,no matter the shape or size it is a "wanna be diaper" .
When it all boils down and people's bullshit issues and diaper shame are distilled that is what's left.i even dare say some of today's diaper technology is evolved and advanced from women's hygiene product development .
Though women are not so open usually about being AB or DL we do have a few of them in our midst ,and once again dare i say some women are ABDL ther whole life without acknowledging it because they get there "diaper" fix every month until menopause with no one thinking bad or ill of them.
So the thought of being alone because youll never find someone to love you, looking past your "fetish" is your mind playing tricks on you straight up,it's all your insecurities about ABDL magnified, amplified and in a feed back loop .
If guys in prison for murder have got friends who look past there crimes and love them for who they are, you have better than even chance of finding someone who loves all of you including that little kink part.
I spend alot of my time talking "diaper" with women in the disability community because I have been IC many years and mentor those people who are new or having a hard time accepting and finding themselves after the diagnosis or in finding the right product , sure not all people are like me in reserving the right to make fun out of my need and just accept whatever comes , but i cant tell you how many women actually saybthat diapers are great , pads and tampons "work" as long as you move the right way and limit your activeties in many cases based on your flow but they do hsve accidents were they leak or god knows why there panties end with more blood than a crime scene , and many times are gratefull for becoming IC because diapers absorb everything accidents are very minor compared to period wear products ,no more having to decide on your level of protection or carrying products just in case your period comes early or late or too often , when your diapered every day there are no decisions or guestimates made every morning and possibly regretted later because "surprise" . So your diaper fears are living and manipulating your life and fears, when plenty of women do not care your underwear choice or if they do its to pick your brain for coping resources and "tricks of the trade" of protection .
So in my experience not my opinion , there is a woman out there for you , finding her may not be a straight linear path or defined in anyway but just like shit happens so does love.
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