I love this forum for its intelligent comments. I've looked at it off and on over the past several years, but have not participated like I should have. Now I'll try to do that more often.
I am someone, like many others, who basically has wanted to be diapered and "little" whenever I need to retreat and feel calm. I've felt that way since I was 5 or 6. At least that is as early as I definitely remember loving the idea of wearing a diaper and when I was no longer wearing diapers. I had a very insecure childhood and I'm sure that contributed to this desire. For most of my childhood, I was "raised" by a single, alcoholic mother.
I would get a diaper any way I could when I was young. Sometimes that meant stealing one from a clothes line or a community dryer. Sometimes it meant making then from old tshirts. In my whole life, I believe I'm correct in saying that there might be only one year during which I was not able to wear a diaper at some point.
My wife of more than a decade knows everything because I told her, but she does not participate. I've told other close family members too and they are fine with it. I wear both cloth and disposable diapers and love pacifiers and footed sleepers. I'm so glad I live in an era when both kinds of diapers and footed sleepers exist for grown-ups and are easily available and I can be open about it, at least online if not in regular society.
I've had all the usual issues that AB/TB/DL's have, such as 1) Thinking I'm the only one; 2) Thinking it'll stop when I get older; 3) Getting disgusted with myself and throwing out all my stuff and then buying it all again; 4) Wondering if anyone notices when I wear in public; 5) Getting embarassed about buying diapers in a store and almost getting "caught"; 6) Actually getting "caught" changing my diaper; 7) Wondering if it is really wrong; 8) Spending too much time being "little"; and 9) Wondering if so-and-so knows about my kink and 10) Finally reconciling myself to my quirks and learning to like myself and getting on with my life.
That's me and I appreciate all of you!