Diagnose Me

I have long pondered whether I am predominantly a DL or an AB. I remember wanting to wear diapers and pull-ups from my earliest recollections (age 4-5). As a teenager I could not resist the urge to steal/wear diapers from my grandparents bathroom or anywhere else I could get my hands on them. I often took stupid risks just because I could not resist the urge to wear.

Since I have been wearing as an adult, I have relished in trying as many different brands/models of diaper as possible, and I absolutely love the feeling of a swollen, sagging diaper. I always wet heavily when I wear, and I occasionally mess if I'm able to see a huge bulge appear at the seat of my diaper when I watch in the mirror. I love the feeling of stuffed, saggy diaper.

I feel like the fact that I love wearing and using diapers so much makes me primarily a DL. However, my diaper desires have only a very latent sexual overtone - mainly I am looking for escape, comfort, security, and release.

In that vein, I dabble in some AB things too. My favorites accessory is a onesie, albeit not because of the babyish design but because of how it holds up a sagging diaper. I also have some Nuk 6 pacifiers and baby bottles, which I use very occasionally, but do not get very much enjoyment from. All of my favorite diapers are AB products, although I think that the modern AB diapers are objectively superior diapers regardless of their babyish designs.

Ultimately, my greatest fantasy is to be diapered by a loving female figure, ideally a babysitter. To me the "diaper change" is the pinnacle of my desires, but I wouldn't want to be changed by a parent or family member. My biggest diaper fantasy is a that I am 12 years old and recently orphaned, and my new foster mother puts me in diapers to humiliate me when I start wetting the bed after I move in with her. I have always kept my ABDL side a deeply kept secret, so I have never been changed by someone else. I have considered hiring an escort to play nanny and change my diaper with no sex, but ultimately I am too shy to trust a stranger with that kind of vulnerability.

My fantasy is very specific: I am a 12 year old who secretly enjoys being treated like a 3 year old and diapered by an adult. While I do not want to be a baby, I want to be treated like a baby even though I am truly older. I get little to no sexual satisfaction from wearing, but my favorite feeling is that of a hugely sagging diaper being held up by a snug onesie.

So what am I: AB or DL? If I am a little of both, what percent of each am I?

You're both. Your DL side seems most active but you've got AB in there. Although we often think of them as a line with opposing points, I think you can be high in one without taking away from the other. They're also sexually neutral, i.e., you can be sexually motivated or not as an AB or a DL (both or neither).

Mostly DL with some AB tendencies. And as with any form of love, it most certainly can include sexuality with it. Nothing wrong with wanting that a lot, or very little.

DL with infantile kleptomania tendencies.

Since you do not fantasize about being a baby, or desire to take on the role of a baby through regressing to that age, your application to the AB club will most likely be rejected. But don't take that personally. ABs can be so immature at times.

Why do you need to be "diagnosed" anyway, you are perfect any which way you are. Plus it's what you identify personally that makes you what you are, it's not a medicle condition, so it does not need diagnosing , hope I helped .

Enjoy your diapers and be yourself