miapeters
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Hello everyone it has been a while
A lot has happened the last month or so
So around last month my appendix ruptured and I honestly thought it wasn't a big deal
But as usual things went to shit and even though I went to the hospital as fast as possible and went into surgery allowing very little time for it to get worse I went into septic shock for the second time in my life
Every time I think about it the only words which come to my mind are life totally screwed me over
The sepsis caused my blood flow to reduce and my upper extremities were getting no blood and I lost both my arms above the elbow
After around 20 plus surgeries multiple skin grafts I was barely awake to receive the shock of my life
I say all this with a strength but the initial first few weeks was full of me not being able to stop crying and feeling sorry for myself I honestly didn't care if I died right then and there
What was worse was to face my family who were in a worse emotional state than I was though they tried not to show it
Since then its been mostly getting through the pain the skin grafts were painfull beyond anything I have ever gone through my body is scarred everywhere
It was a miracle that I started to be able to walk with my old prosthetics without having to shorten them
A lady from an organization which helps younger amputees reached out to me and shared prosthetic information and agreed to help me as she too has had similar amputations a few years ago
A lot of my college plans were canceled and I hope to transfer to a university close to home as my doctors and physiotherapists are all here like
Because of how short my stumps are I have had to settle for body powered hook prosthetics not pretty at all but they would be the most functional for me
A lot of the bionic prosthetics required more of the stump to be there and remaining muscle for control
Either way I have been focusing on physiotherapy and trying not to go into a bad place mentally
I have been really depressed even before this with the increased incontinence but this has just hit me so hard
I have started walking again with the prosthetics and already started using the hook prosthetics since yesterday
I have been talking to a lot of you about my progress privately but as someone pointed out maybe it would be better to share it so I did
I have been using speech to text mostly and it has been great except using symbols and punctuation is annoying so sorry I avoid those since I might have had to speed hours trying to typed individual stuff
I do have a full time caregiver doing literally everything for me but I'm sure I can take over a small part of it when I become better with the prosthetics
I may not be able to reply to a lot of questions depending on how free I am since I have already started therapy for my arm prosthetics
Things might get a little more busy since I am also trying to start university but not sure of whether I will although it seems to be possible
I probably will have to change my major a little but I can't keep missing semester after semester
Anyway I thank this site for it's users who have virtualy been with me and hopefully I can comeback and get in touch with some of you again
A lot has happened the last month or so
So around last month my appendix ruptured and I honestly thought it wasn't a big deal
But as usual things went to shit and even though I went to the hospital as fast as possible and went into surgery allowing very little time for it to get worse I went into septic shock for the second time in my life
Every time I think about it the only words which come to my mind are life totally screwed me over
The sepsis caused my blood flow to reduce and my upper extremities were getting no blood and I lost both my arms above the elbow
After around 20 plus surgeries multiple skin grafts I was barely awake to receive the shock of my life
I say all this with a strength but the initial first few weeks was full of me not being able to stop crying and feeling sorry for myself I honestly didn't care if I died right then and there
What was worse was to face my family who were in a worse emotional state than I was though they tried not to show it
Since then its been mostly getting through the pain the skin grafts were painfull beyond anything I have ever gone through my body is scarred everywhere
It was a miracle that I started to be able to walk with my old prosthetics without having to shorten them
A lady from an organization which helps younger amputees reached out to me and shared prosthetic information and agreed to help me as she too has had similar amputations a few years ago
A lot of my college plans were canceled and I hope to transfer to a university close to home as my doctors and physiotherapists are all here like
Because of how short my stumps are I have had to settle for body powered hook prosthetics not pretty at all but they would be the most functional for me
A lot of the bionic prosthetics required more of the stump to be there and remaining muscle for control
Either way I have been focusing on physiotherapy and trying not to go into a bad place mentally
I have been really depressed even before this with the increased incontinence but this has just hit me so hard
I have started walking again with the prosthetics and already started using the hook prosthetics since yesterday
I have been talking to a lot of you about my progress privately but as someone pointed out maybe it would be better to share it so I did
I have been using speech to text mostly and it has been great except using symbols and punctuation is annoying so sorry I avoid those since I might have had to speed hours trying to typed individual stuff
I do have a full time caregiver doing literally everything for me but I'm sure I can take over a small part of it when I become better with the prosthetics
I may not be able to reply to a lot of questions depending on how free I am since I have already started therapy for my arm prosthetics
Things might get a little more busy since I am also trying to start university but not sure of whether I will although it seems to be possible
I probably will have to change my major a little but I can't keep missing semester after semester
Anyway I thank this site for it's users who have virtualy been with me and hopefully I can comeback and get in touch with some of you again