interesting thoughts, there is actually a way you can 'train' yourself to find diapers sexy however it really an associative trick, by wearing more often and allways wearing untill you wet them you will feel more comfortable in them and less concerned with the fact that they are weird for a non fetishist. NEVER change yourself, this chore distracts from what you are going for, he needs to look after you, finally sex or maturbation, together or alone whenever you wear you should get pleasure from it,eventually you will feel excitement when he pulls a diaper out and tells you to lay back, excitement for what you know is to come in association with it, in other words he says diaper and you think sex, its the closest you can ever get to giving yourself a fetish, another good trick is to practice a fetish you do have at the same time, for example if your into rubber then getyourself a pair of rubber diaper covers bondage? a pacifier gag! mix the two and it will enrich both of your experiences