Hi, I'm a DL from Canada.
I've never really shared this with anyone, so sorry for the long post.
I've been interested in diapers for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest diaper memories was finding a stuffed animal of mine in a closet that was wearing a baby diaper. This would have been about 5 or 6 years after I was potty trained . . . but I remember being kind of jealous of the stuffed animal.
I thought I was a total freak until we got AOL in the 90s. I was probably in my mid teens, scrolling through the communities one night and found the ABDL chat room. It was amazing.
There I found some older ABDLs who were really nice and mailed me my first adult diapers. They were the old, white six tape Attends. I still remember the smell when I opened up the package.
When I got my drivers' licence I started to stop on my way home from friend's, late at night, to buy packages of Attends and Depends from the 24 hour drug store. I would wait in the coffee shop across the street until I was pretty sure there would be no other customers, then rush over, make a split second decision about what diapers to buy, pay for them and run.
I told my first girlfriend in grade 12. She was cool with it and even tried one on, but then started opening up more and more about her life, and pushing my boundaries when it came to drugs. I remember being out for a walk with her one night, we were taking about her desire to do mushrooms and have me babysit her. I told her I wasn't comfortable with that, and she shouted "well, it's not like I'm comfortable with your diapers!" I was terrified that one of my neighbours heard.
The next girlfriend I told was in university. She was a psychology student and, in one of those amazing coincidences, was studying infantilism at the time. She was super understanding and was cool with me wearing around her and keeping diapers at her apartment (I still lived with my parents, but slept at her place most nights). She was never interested in taking part, but I was so content to just wear a diaper around her.
For some reason I never worked up the courage to tell the next girlfriend about my DL side. I think I always assumed the relationship with the psychology student ended partially because I was a DL . . . although, on reflection, it never seemed to affect anything.
We had been living together for several months, and I was working an outdoor job that required hours of attention at a time. Because of a tiny bladder I was having to go in search of a bathroom all the time. I decided to start wearing a diaper to work but didn't want to hide it, so one night I told my girlfriend about the problem, and my solution. She said she thought it was a great idea. I literally asked her to marry me that night.
That was about 11 years ago now. I've always had diapers in the house since then, and, despite not working that job anymore, often find reasons to wear a diaper that she's OK with. Most recently I started wearing Depend True-Fits while running because I got sick of peeing in the bush or coming home nearly bursting. I like them a lot, and have started wearing one while driving to and from the cabin and in any other scenario where I might not be able to find a bathroom every 40 minutes or so.
I also have some premium adult diapers, like Abena L4s in the house, but don't wear those around her, because I'm not sure what she would think. I save those for weekends alone. I'm reasonably confident that she knows what's in the black duffel bag in the storage room.
I'm kind of in a weird spot now. I can wear diapers pretty much whenever I like (although without making a big deal about it) but have never shared with my partner how important the whole diaper thing is to me. I worry now that it's been too long, and coming out to her about this will raise questions about what I've been hiding for the past decade and why.
So that's my story up until now.
Again, sorry for the long post. It's a lot to get out. Thanks for reading if you got here.
TLDR: Been a DL since grade school. Married to a wonderful woman who knows I wear adult pullups occasionally due to a small bladder, but doesn't know I also like to wear traditional adult diapers recreationally.
I've never really shared this with anyone, so sorry for the long post.
I've been interested in diapers for as long as I can remember. One of my earliest diaper memories was finding a stuffed animal of mine in a closet that was wearing a baby diaper. This would have been about 5 or 6 years after I was potty trained . . . but I remember being kind of jealous of the stuffed animal.
I thought I was a total freak until we got AOL in the 90s. I was probably in my mid teens, scrolling through the communities one night and found the ABDL chat room. It was amazing.
There I found some older ABDLs who were really nice and mailed me my first adult diapers. They were the old, white six tape Attends. I still remember the smell when I opened up the package.
When I got my drivers' licence I started to stop on my way home from friend's, late at night, to buy packages of Attends and Depends from the 24 hour drug store. I would wait in the coffee shop across the street until I was pretty sure there would be no other customers, then rush over, make a split second decision about what diapers to buy, pay for them and run.
I told my first girlfriend in grade 12. She was cool with it and even tried one on, but then started opening up more and more about her life, and pushing my boundaries when it came to drugs. I remember being out for a walk with her one night, we were taking about her desire to do mushrooms and have me babysit her. I told her I wasn't comfortable with that, and she shouted "well, it's not like I'm comfortable with your diapers!" I was terrified that one of my neighbours heard.
The next girlfriend I told was in university. She was a psychology student and, in one of those amazing coincidences, was studying infantilism at the time. She was super understanding and was cool with me wearing around her and keeping diapers at her apartment (I still lived with my parents, but slept at her place most nights). She was never interested in taking part, but I was so content to just wear a diaper around her.
For some reason I never worked up the courage to tell the next girlfriend about my DL side. I think I always assumed the relationship with the psychology student ended partially because I was a DL . . . although, on reflection, it never seemed to affect anything.
We had been living together for several months, and I was working an outdoor job that required hours of attention at a time. Because of a tiny bladder I was having to go in search of a bathroom all the time. I decided to start wearing a diaper to work but didn't want to hide it, so one night I told my girlfriend about the problem, and my solution. She said she thought it was a great idea. I literally asked her to marry me that night.
That was about 11 years ago now. I've always had diapers in the house since then, and, despite not working that job anymore, often find reasons to wear a diaper that she's OK with. Most recently I started wearing Depend True-Fits while running because I got sick of peeing in the bush or coming home nearly bursting. I like them a lot, and have started wearing one while driving to and from the cabin and in any other scenario where I might not be able to find a bathroom every 40 minutes or so.
I also have some premium adult diapers, like Abena L4s in the house, but don't wear those around her, because I'm not sure what she would think. I save those for weekends alone. I'm reasonably confident that she knows what's in the black duffel bag in the storage room.
I'm kind of in a weird spot now. I can wear diapers pretty much whenever I like (although without making a big deal about it) but have never shared with my partner how important the whole diaper thing is to me. I worry now that it's been too long, and coming out to her about this will raise questions about what I've been hiding for the past decade and why.
So that's my story up until now.
Again, sorry for the long post. It's a lot to get out. Thanks for reading if you got here.
TLDR: Been a DL since grade school. Married to a wonderful woman who knows I wear adult pullups occasionally due to a small bladder, but doesn't know I also like to wear traditional adult diapers recreationally.