So im just curious about something relating to my own experience.
Please respect what i have to say as i still feel weird about it even at 22 years old.
I started puberty at a normal age 12-13, development-wise. well muscled, deep voice, hair, acne, body parts etc
I had urges/fantasies at this age only regarding diapers and the association with my omorashi type desires. I did this for years and years. (wear diapers and go number one in them)
However, i recall the first time having actual sexual desires at about 20 years old.
With my first ejaculation at 16 almost 17. It may sound very abnormal but the reason was because i never knew what masturbation was. I would hear my friends say "jack off" and laugh about it and i would just go along with it and think nothing of it. Sex ed in grade 6 imo is a little too young. Even then i didnt understand anything they taught us. probably because i didnt have those desires in the first place. Eventually got to the point where i googled it well into high school (11th grade)
Im wondering why i got these desires so late? could i have caused harm by going all those years without "releasing" ?