Ok, so over the course of the past few months I started playing a game called mabinogi again, it's an mmorpg. Been making friends and such in game but it's been causing a lot of problems for me and i'm not exactly sure why I do this.
I become overly attached to those who I consider friends and that in itself would be fine and dandy if I didn't become an overly depressed crazy person anytime I was left alone or felt like there was no one to play with or to talk to. I often also have jealousy issue.
When a friend is doing something without me or not playing with me it often makes my heart hurt. I get depressed and really sad. It's gotten to the point where i'm losing friends and causing problems for other people.
I don't really expect much to help as I have no idea how to not feel like that when it happens. I am just so overly depressed lately ... I don't know what to do anymore.
I honestly think i'm a terrible person these days. I sometimes often get to the point where I chase friends away because I don't want to hurt anymore. Is it possible ... being alone is just better for me?