Okay I have mentioned in this thread before my frequent heart burn. Well I was taking medicine for it and I think its not working as well. The pain has been back for the fast few nights and I have been staying up late. All this extra time alone allows a lot of thought. Now, I also have chemical imbalances and have been diognosed with deppression and anxiety... I choose not to take medicine unless I'm in danger of killing myself. I don't want to be yet another drugged up american...
ANYWAY all this time allots more thought... and I've been thinking about sad things. Verry unlikely things, but very sad. An example would be if everyone close to me died... or If my girlfriend stopped loving me. So... I'll procede to crying when the thoughts get to much... It makes my pains worse and keeps me up later.
I feel stupid crying for no reason and theres not really anyone I can vent to at 2 am... its 10 pm where i live now and the pains are starting up. Its just embarasing and I felt like venting. I used to crochet but I ran out of yarn.. crocheting made me concerned with doing it perfectly and I didnt think as much... but doing things constructive like working on my small buisness just stress me.. there distracting but not appropriate for 2 am. Reading makes my head hurt because I analize stories too much (lol im quite a thinker... i read slow because of it)
Does anyone have an opinion on this? Does anyone have similar issues? Does anyone have suggestions on things I could do to stay content when I cant sleep?