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    I know with most AB/DLs there ABDLism isn't caused by abuse at all but with me I think that the abuse I went through as a kid is a major driving factor for my little side.

    I pretty much went through abuse and bullying most of my life, ranging from getting black mailed which I haven't ever told a soul about, to small things such as being physically hit and abused, most of my abuse was verbal but that still causes damage.

    Because of that I never kind of had a good childhood, not a single soul knows to what extent the bullying went on, but I do and being little is somewhat me experiencing what I couldn't as a kid.

    Brings me back to the mindset of being a child, but without all the bad things that happened to me.

    At the same time I feel like it's always been a part of me too, as I had interests in diapers most of my life, but I think puberty was a major driving factor for it, as I was bullied and found it a way to escape my problems diapers would just bring me into a happy mental state, without a worry.

    That being said I can't remember most of my child hood, due to the mental blocks, but I can recall most of the abuse throughout high school, the betrayal even. It hurts me to this day.

    I somewhat don't think I ever matured mentally, as I never was a child, I'm sure some little's can relate to that. I've known some adults who I suspect were little's (mostly a bit too childish like us :P) that had some messed up things happen to them.

    A reason why I think I'm also mentally undeveloped is I still have the imagination of a five year old, me flying around or flying cars, silly little things.

    I kind of never grew up sadly.

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    I can kinda relate to that, Sometimes I kinda forced myself to grow up at times but I always knew I was a little kid inside, due to the abuse that went on in previous households before I lived with my grandmother.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Shybug View Post
    I know with most AB/DLs there ABDLism isn't caused by abuse at all but with me I think that the abuse I went through as a kid is a major driving factor for my little side.

    I pretty much went through abuse and bullying most of my life, ranging from getting black mailed which I haven't ever told a soul about, to small things such as being physically hit and abused, most of my abuse was verbal but that still causes damage.

    Because of that I never kind of had a good childhood, not a single soul knows to what extent the bullying went on, but I do and being little is somewhat me experiencing what I couldn't as a kid.

    Brings me back to the mindset of being a child, but without all the bad things that happened to me.

    At the same time I feel like it's always been a part of me too, as I had interests in diapers most of my life, but I think puberty was a major driving factor for it, as I was bullied and found it a way to escape my problems diapers would just bring me into a happy mental state, without a worry.

    That being said I can't remember most of my child hood, due to the mental blocks, but I can recall most of the abuse throughout high school, the betrayal even. It hurts me to this day.

    I somewhat don't think I ever matured mentally, as I never was a child, I'm sure some little's can relate to that. I've known some adults who I suspect were little's (mostly a bit too childish like us :P) that had some messed up things happen to them.

    A reason why I think I'm also mentally undeveloped is I still have the imagination of a five year old, me flying around or flying cars, silly little things.

    I kind of never grew up sadly.
    I an Autistic with Cerebral Palsy is a survivor of severe childhood abuse and neglect. It is a major factor in my being an Adult Baby.

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    I don't consider my childhood to be abusive, but it was far from perfect. I started having DL tendencies at 4 years old, although I toilet trained easily at 2 1/2. My mother was somewhat verbally abusive and smacked me occasionally until I got big enough to block her. It really wasn't something that left me scarred, though. She had neurological issues and could not control her temper sometimes. My father was one of the most wonderful people who has ever walked this Earth, but he let my mother walk all over him.

    I was bullied badly from 9 to 15 years old. I was small, intelligent, and not very athletic. I was not a "nerd" though, which actually made things worse since I lacked a social group to fit in with. My AB/DL side probably kept me from socializing and getting into sexual relationships with girls. I came to terms with myself as I became an adult and have no real issues now with who I am.

    I know that I'll never get married or have children, but I have a fulfilling life regardless of what happened years ago. I feel great sympathy for those who experienced real abuse. One of my best college friends suffered from severe depression due to childhood sexual abuse and nearly killed himself. I don't think that there is necessarily a firm link between abuse and AB/DL, but I'm sure it is a part of the equation in some people. I've been AB/DL for as long as I can remember, and I believe I was either born this way or developed it so early in childhood that I (or my parents) had no control over it.

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    It really sad that abuse happens. But don't think you are mentally undeveloped because you are not. You just see things differently.

    If we judge intelligence by the ability to climb a tree than a fish will think it is undeveloped. Or just thick. Not realising that it can swim. It all about what we can do that counts.

    Just because you still have the heart and imagination of a child is a good thing becouse you can do things that a lot of Grown ups can not.

    I was told in a form of Peter Pan syndrome. All it takes is faith, hope and pixie dust.

    Translate it into adult. A vision of what you want to achieve. (Faith.) Believe in oneself to be able to achieve it. (Hope.) Your circumstances, social background etc. These are thing you may not be able to control, but with work they can be changed. ( pixie dust.)

    Then all is left is (happy thoughts.) Self motivation.

    Then it the secion stat to the right and straight on til morning.

    The great thing about us Little ones.
    Is the intellect of an adult, with the mysterious death of a child.

    This make us so much more fun to be around. You never know what we are going to get up to.

    Also I have observed that give people permission to join us in play they will do. Some people just need to know it's ok to play. This is why adult colouring in books on the increase.

    Anyway hope that's helpful to you little one.

    Sisi

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    I had a far from perfect childhood myself, I had to wait in the car for hours with moms doctor appointments and half the time she was in hospital, but I don't think that's the reason I wanted to be a little, I just hPpened to like that stuff since I got out of it. I have come to terms with who I am and I am proud of what I do, i don't want children, I want to the child, I am going to work with children so I can be both a child and a adult. I have come past the wired part of it, but when younger cusions come over, it throws me off a bit but I bounce back. I feel purge because the kids are a lot smaller and I feel like a overgrown toddler. That's depressing!

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    I think abdl comes from us stressing out about things that are beyond our control as children. Also situations where we don't get that connectedness with our parents for one reason or another. Abuse is the obvious one, but there are less malicious situations like divorce financial troubles younger siblings or sickness could all cause the parent to be emotionally unavailable.

    I remember during a psych test I had to take they had a question about loving relationships. How many people do you have that you could tell anything? I thought of the fetish and wrote zero. I was being abused at the time though. I was a total emotional brick wall day to day and had been that way for years. What I think led to the fetish is that no one seamed to notice what was happening to me. I wanted to be rescued so badly.

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    Honestly, ABDL comes from a variety of sources, its the destination and crossroads of many different paths.

    I have known ABDLs who came from abusive pasts and used it as an escape, or a chance to live somthing they feel they missed out on.
    I have known those who had a great childhood, and did not feel ready to leave behind that child expierance of wonder and comfort


    The weird thing of all this, is our idea of abdl is heavily reflective of society's presentation of childhood. while some aspects will remain the same regardless of culture, others are only manifestations of the civilization we live in and idealic daydream fantasies we create
    only you can say for sure what draws you to abdl activities, and what holds true for you, may not for others.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Shybug View Post
    I know with most AB/DLs there ABDLism isn't caused by abuse at all but with me I think that the abuse I went through as a kid is a major driving factor for my little side.

    I pretty much went through abuse and bullying most of my life, ranging from getting black mailed which I haven't ever told a soul about, to small things such as being physically hit and abused, most of my abuse was verbal but that still causes damage.

    Because of that I never kind of had a good childhood, not a single soul knows to what extent the bullying went on, but I do and being little is somewhat me experiencing what I couldn't as a kid.

    Brings me back to the mindset of being a child, but without all the bad things that happened to me.

    At the same time I feel like it's always been a part of me too, as I had interests in diapers most of my life, but I think puberty was a major driving factor for it, as I was bullied and found it a way to escape my problems diapers would just bring me into a happy mental state, without a worry.

    That being said I can't remember most of my child hood, due to the mental blocks, but I can recall most of the abuse throughout high school, the betrayal even. It hurts me to this day.

    I somewhat don't think I ever matured mentally, as I never was a child, I'm sure some little's can relate to that. I've known some adults who I suspect were little's (mostly a bit too childish like us :P) that had some messed up things happen to them.

    A reason why I think I'm also mentally undeveloped is I still have the imagination of a five year old, me flying around or flying cars, silly little things.

    I kind of never grew up sadly.
    Some of this fit's my path beat up all the time at school .
    Was small kid hi voice.
    The trigger was forced into cloth diapers then sent out to play.
    Then the hell started I was 6or7.
    Mom was not a touching feeling type dad was very very stricked.
    Some time's I picked my self off the floor not knowing what I did.
    Bullying till I had to drop out of school or kill my self.
    I chose to live.
    Then sexual abuse in early teens by a stranger.
    I very much understand where my path was I'm a little to be safe from the abuse and hurt I received.
    I've nurtured myself my whole life because I couldn't trust anybody else and it's hard to ever let anybody in.
    For fear of being hurt again.
    So in way's I'm a big kid.
    Alway will be one.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Shybug View Post
    I know with most AB/DLs there ABDLism isn't caused by abuse at all but with me I think that the abuse I went through as a kid is a major driving factor for my little side.

    I pretty much went through abuse and bullying most of my life, ranging from getting black mailed which I haven't ever told a soul about, to small things such as being physically hit and abused, most of my abuse was verbal but that still causes damage.

    Because of that I never kind of had a good childhood, not a single soul knows to what extent the bullying went on, but I do and being little is somewhat me experiencing what I couldn't as a kid.

    Brings me back to the mindset of being a child, but without all the bad things that happened to me.

    At the same time I feel like it's always been a part of me too, as I had interests in diapers most of my life, but I think puberty was a major driving factor for it, as I was bullied and found it a way to escape my problems diapers would just bring me into a happy mental state, without a worry.

    That being said I can't remember most of my child hood, due to the mental blocks, but I can recall most of the abuse throughout high school, the betrayal even. It hurts me to this day.

    I somewhat don't think I ever matured mentally, as I never was a child, I'm sure some little's can relate to that. I've known some adults who I suspect were little's (mostly a bit too childish like us :P) that had some messed up things happen to them.

    A reason why I think I'm also mentally undeveloped is I still have the imagination of a five year old, me flying around or flying cars, silly little things.

    I kind of never grew up sadly.
    I can see how all of that would possibly be linked in some fashion. I would say it is similar in many aspects with a lot of us; without us even thinking about it really.

    I wouldn't say that my tendencies with this fetish stem from any abuse, but I did go through some harsh daycare learning when I was young and given that was the late 80s; things were less...liberal? then. A lot of mine though I would say stems from being pretty quiet and more into 'smarty-pants' things going through life which caused me to be the target of pretty much any one of the kids in school who were considered the cool ones. I had weird friends, and we liked things that the regular kids didn't. We didn't play sports, we liked playing games on computers, we were into scifi and fantasy stuff. All around I have always had an over active imagination and even to this day enjoy a lot of things that many adults would consider childish. I guess it didn't help that in my family I was the oldest child and I ended up more times then not being the cousin who was brought in to care for the younger ones.

    In one of my chats with my psychiatrist last year, I described it to her as: Being a nerd/geek before it was cool thanks to The Big Bang Theory. You hear the kids these days saying they are nerds, but they are just following suit of whats shown on a tv show without really understanding that tv shows paint a perfect picture. Its a shame that in the 'real world' you are made to feel like you have to be a certian way to be an adult. Or if you are quiet, you're odd or strange. The way I see it, many people who hide their fetishes are simply doing so because they want to follow the social 'norms'

    No one says anyone has to grow up. Hold onto any imagination! I mean it could be worse; you could be one of the youngsters these days who have no imagination at all because they spend their days face first into a phone or tablet. :/

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