Hey, so I'm gonna give a little warning right now. This will include discussions of masturbation, so I apologize if I have made any of you uncomfortable. Like, I promise I am not just here to talk about fetishes.
Second warning. I feel pretty that this post is pretty rambling and speculative. I think I get that you guys won't be able to give me definitive answers on where I fall into all of this, so if you guys could focus on giving me advice on how to make my experience with diapers more enjoyable, I think that's specifically why I'm writing this.
With that out of the way...
Hey guys! So I had diapers arrive last thursday in the mail. They were the girls goodnites, which were the diapers I wished I could wear to bed as a child. This was only my second time buying diapers as an adult, and the last time was back in the spring, so I was really excited. But now that I've been wearing them quite a bit for the past few days, they've gotten kinda boring.
So I'm trying to figure out of they do anything for me, or if there's something I can do to have more fun with them.
I'm either a dl fetishist, lg, or a little of both. I'm still figuring out how I fit in to all of this.
So here's a bit of my backstory. I was a bedwetter until I was eleven, and I developed my interest in diapers when I was thirteen.
I always thought my interest was more on the fetish end, but I think my present experience is challenging that a bit.
Masturbating hasn't gotten any easier. Like, it usually takes me around thirty minutes to do it. I'm not easily aroused, it always seems to require deliberate effort on my part. And all my life, the only stuff I've been able to masturbate to has involved diapers.
Wearing them hasn't exactly helped. Now I have a physical barrier between me and my penis, so maybe my method needs to change. (for the record, I don't like having a penis that much anyway, so masturbating was already awkward.) Maybe I need to ask that embarrassing question. How do I masturbate while wearing this?
Maybe I'm trying it too much. Like wearing a diaper all day and expecting to get aroused for a substantial period is out of line with reality. Once a day might be a bit too much.
Or maybe my fetish is not wearing diapers, but seeing other people wear them. I mean, there's a fair chance of that. Or maybe legit diapers are better than pullups. I'll find that out when my samples arrive.
I think that a big part of this could be that my goodnites don't make me feel very little or very girly. Wearing them reminds me that I have a penis. My closet has nothing but women's clothing. I don't own a single male outfit anymore. But I think that looking at myself when I'm in any sort of underwear, including diapers, might play into my disphoria.
So if I'm having trouble sexually on this part, I maybe I should try going the more ab/lg route.
How do you guys maintain little space while wearing your diapers? Is little space something you just enter for like thirty minutes?
When I got the goodnites, I kinda invented my own little fantasy narrative about why exactly I'm wearing them, reimagining myself as an eight year old girl. That got me excited for a bit, but it's getting kinda hard to maintain that fantasy. How do you guys do this?
I'm still trying to figure all this out. If you guys any advice on constructing fantasy identity, how disphoria plays into your diaper experience, or just a few fun activities while diapered, feel free to comment.
Sorry if my post lost direction for a bit.