That makes absolutely no sense logically. I mean you give arguments almost every post you make that justifies your need to wear a diaper opposite your objections to doing so for which you have no argument.
Why guilty if in your very description you pretty much stated they help you be more rested? you said its not a mater of infantileishness, if not then what are you guilty of?, sleeping like a baby?
I mean lets look at the score tally:
I started wearing Abena M4s to manage my nighttime pee urgency which was waking me up multiple times a night
arguments for
Against my doctor's recommendation, I decided not to use medications to manage my urgency. I am on too many of them as it is for Asthma and other medical conditions that have me on a Diuretic
Did you try it?, did it show up as a complication risk with what you are taking? mark this as another reason for using diapers as you don't want to use the medication for urgency
I guess I would be a mild DL, I just want to use them for their intended purpose. I have real reasons to use them. Waking up multiple times a night is not fun and ruins my day by making me sleepy.
Self admited desire to use them thats 3 strikes so far (you'd be out at baseball)
Seriously, I don't mind using them at night
Another reason for, thats four
When I wear diapers, I feel extremely guilty. I know that they make my life more manageable, but I just can't help feeling like I am doing something wrong. Ugh...
Guilt feeling not founded on any reason you've given but counting as one point against
That seems like too much work, I don't want any surgeries nor any medications. I just feel so guilty wearing diapers to manage having to wakeup multiple times a night. During the day, most of the time I am fine. However there are times where I wish I was wearing a Diaper to alleviate the pain of holding it.
I suffer from anxiety and I torture myself trying to hold it instead of brining attention to myself. Like at the movies, I am afraid of getting up during the movie to go to the bathroom. I don't want to block people or get in the way. This is the same problem when I am on an Airplane, I am scared of using the Restrooms.
When I drive from state to state, the rest stop bathrooms are horrible.
Diapers making things easier to manage you don't want to consider surgery or medication, 2 point towards why to wear
It is a diuretic, my doctor said "You are on a very high dose, that is the reason why you have to get up so much" I asked if I could change meds and he told me that it is the only medication for my condition.
You're on a high does of a drug designed to make you pee alot.... definite point for
I can't imagine wearing a Abena M4 out in public, for one it makes me walk funny and it makes so much noise.
I really need to try a Molicare and a Dry/24. I have never worn them before.
Embarrassment factor, one point not to wear
So today I woke with an intense and painful urge to pee and the second I got up I flooded my diaper. I am really thankful I was wearing it.
It legitamately saved you from wetting the bed. Point for
Except... that I just flooded a pull-up that I had on and it leaked on my computer chair and to the floor.
definite point for,
My roommate noticed that I am much more energetic in the morning when I wore a diaper the night before. I decided to not wear for a night and I had to run to the bathroom to pee several times. That morning I struggled to wake up.
Others notice you seem more rested, point for
Tally so far 2 points against, 10 points for
Again not saying this to upset you or anything, just trying to get you to look at how you sound and what you've admitted that diapers have done to make your life easier and there is no real reason to feel guilty. If you really don't want to take the medication for urgency or wear a diaper, you may want to discuss catheters with your doctor.