I wouldn't really call them disturbing but I find instead of being a little, I end up procrastinating and searching up ABDL sites and pictures and I spend ages on there. I know I want to play with something but I end up surfing the web. It's like I am addicted or I am not allowing myself to be little. This has decreased a little since my toys are now on show.
But how do I come by this? What is this even? Why I am doing this to myself? Is it healthy? How can I stop it most importantly?