My couselor told me to write a letter to my dead mom explaining how I felt when she did certain things when she abused me physically and emotionally and how we had some nice moments together. That night I was scared she was haunting me and I was lieing in bed sweating and tossing and turning.
For now the haunted feeling is gone as I wrote that letter last night but what I noticed was that I was crying about the things she had done which I never did before apart from the time it happened. In the past I repressed everything she did and was full of rage and bitterness.
My dad said things get better before they get worse, am I expressing my grief about my abuse or am I getting worse? Is it more healthy to cry? Will I get over this?