So I have felt like there has been a "little" side to me for many many years, and today, I somehow stumbled upon the term used on Youtube and after watching a few videos I suddenly felt like I'd found people who can relate to how I've felt inside for such a long time!! It was amazing.
I googled and found terms little space, infantilism, age play and DDLG and ABDL and even the name of this forum. I don't know exactly what they mean and I and confused about what I am. I would like to clarify that my needs to feel little are totally NON-SEXUAL and quite honestly I don't accept that being a little or baby can ever be sexualised, I don't see it as a fetish, (I understand people do but I am entirely not interested) and I just hope that this is a place where I can talk about my true desires to be little safely?
So a bit about me and what I have learned:
I have been drawn to buying kids toys for myself to enjoy since I was a teenager. I remember I bought a care bear and a care bear DVD and I would watch it and I felt so cosy and happy. That was the first time I guess I regressed (also a new term I am learning)
I have actually been a "little" on a game called Second Life for a year, and I thought it was just a thing there. I never knew there was a real life community about it. What confuses me however, is that the first time I heard the term age play was in SL and it is related to things sexual in nature and it is completely illegal so what is it in real life? I guess it means something different?
In SL as a little I put myself up for adoption and got a family and I was read stories to over voice and cuddled (well, my avatar) and all that good stuff and I just loved it so much
I've been collecting things for myself in real life, plushies, board games and things
My favourite video games are kids games
The majority of the films I own are for children
I'm not into diapers... I have also decided that I don't want a "daddy" or "mommy", so does that mean that this is purely an indulgence and hobby and not DDLG/DMLG (I think those are the terms)?
I basically just want to sometimes spend time in the headspace where I feel like a little girl again and I can play with my plushies and games and snuggle in my PJs and do soothing activities. Does that mean I am technically part of this community?
I almost feel like I am "coming out". I am Raindrops and I like to act a different age some of the time Hello!