I have been thinking on how to be more comfortable with my body and making it feel as childlike as I can. I identify as a child so looking at my self really spoils it for me!
First off with my breasts I have stopped looking at them if I can help it and I have thought about putting a bra on first under my clothes so I can avoid looking at them when I dress, I have thought about wearing a bikini top in the shower but then again, I need to wash in that area as I get spots around my cleavage area, but there is another problem, whilst I can avoid looking at breasts naked, I still am going to be able to see them under my top and have cleavage. I am NOT going to the extreme of surgically removing them but how can I make my breasts appear smaller?
One thing that irks me off is my height, I am not so concerned about my weight but my height seems too big whilst in preprotional to the rest of my body. I cannot do anything about it is the biggest problem! I just wish I realised this before puberty so I could take hormone stoppers to stop my growth. My parents would not allow this though so I could NOT of prevented this in any way. When I lie down all I see is length after length of leg and I feel like a giant! Some of my toys seem to be too small for me and all of the cute clothes are also too small for me! It's kinda handy to reach things though but it still doesn't feel right. Whilst I wouldn't go for this option, I wouldn't think that there would be such thing as shortening bones and making things in proportion to a child, this would first off hurt a lot and make me crippled! Secondly I never know, I may regret this when I am older! At least people take me seriously when I am adult sized! How can I get the illusion that I am small again? I don't think that there is anything...
My body hair removal is ok, but doesn't feel right as it never truly goes away, it leaves stubble and sore bumps on my skin for a about a week after and then I need to shave again! I feels a lot better at the time but my skin reacts badly to it! I feel gross with body hair! I have though pt about using Nair but I have no idea how to use it and what it will do.i use this razor: What can you suggest I can do to make hair removal kinder to my skin and how to make it stay away longer?
Speaking of skin, I get spots, zits and pimples, o.k. Whilst I don't have acne or scarring I am lucky but I feel greasy and oily when I get them. I have starting using baby wash clothes with warm water to wipe away sweat in my spot prone areas. I have to pop pimples that have puss because I feel gross with them on my face! I also have greasy prone hair, I have hair categorised by oily roots and dry ends. What does my hair look like to you? I have washed it last night.does it look greasy or have I tackled that problem? What can you suggest to get stop the formation of spots and greasy hair so quickly? I wash my hair every other day, it looks ok on the second most of the time but sometimes it looks like I have been swimming! I used loreal elvive 3 clays shampoo for oily roots and dry ends whilst I use loreal elvive condition on my ends.
About my periods, I feel like it's a constant reminder of my adult body whilst I am on it, when I change my diapers I have to deal with the blood in there, it's not so much the mess but the reminder that I am a adult. Diapers are useful for catching blood more than a sanitary towel in underwear I find, I am starting to be able to deal with cramps by taking ibroprofen which is a painkiller and after a while the cramps are gone! I take it when they are bad though. Something else I don't like about my period is the fact I turn into a moody teenager in behaviour, I get so emotional and angry that it's just not me! As for solutions, I have thought about tampons but I can't figure out how to use them and they feel uncomfortable, they can stop me getting blood in my diaper though and create a more babyish feel to it. If I use figure out how to use a tampon, would it be worth it? I am also considering this, my dad has mentioned about going on the pill to stop my periods occuring, this has worked for 2-3 weeks as when I went on vacation and I couldn't use a tampon, it stopped my period for the time I was on vacation, the day after my period started again as it was 2 days after stopping taking them. The only thing is 1, I felt a little nauseous for a week before it settled down, 2. I heard that the pill will stop working if you take it for too long and lastly I heard it can cause cancer or infertility which I will proberly regret in my later years! Do you think it's best to just stick with learning to use a tampon or should I consider the pill further?
Sorry if this seemed strange, I just need to feel more comfortable with myself.
How many of you have felt this way about your body?