Well, ever since I realized I was trans, I've had this burning desire I've been ignoring, like the other day I saw some stockings and really wanted to get it, and walked past the makeup section and really noticed some lipstick..
I'm dying to try wear lipstick, and keep having fantasies of wearing makeup and being more girly, I've also had the desire to shave my legs, arm pits and arms.
I've also been dying to get some dresses, but man. this is killing me, is it normal to feel this amount of want?
I feel this desire is more than my desire for diapers.
Than I get sad, because I know I have to hide the fact I'm trans. this is confusing. why is it all of a sudden I'm dying to try new clothes, and makeup and want to be more girly all of a sudden?
I can ignore this desire, but eventually it comes back even more, I have dreams I'll be able to be my true self eventually.
Is this the first sign of acceptance?