It's not just a song, it's a great gift from God, too! I'm leaving, this Friday! I'll be making my big move, my escape, in two more days. The only thing I feel even the slightest amount of badness about, is leaving my cats behind... I love them, waay too much... I mean, I actually talked to them, about me leaving, today (Yeah, yeah, "crazy" joke intermission here..) It actually makes me cry, to think about never seeing them again after this Friday...
This is awful... I don't wanna leave them here, it feels just like if I were to know they were both gonna die, this Frday... I'll never see them again... Never... I can't take this... I feel so guilty for it... Leaving them, all of a sudden... I mean, I don't know if they'll understand what's going on or what... I mean, I remember when our dog had to be put down because of cancer... It was awful... They looked everywhere for him, and you could tell they didn't know what happened, from how they acted. Either that, or they were denying it. They definitely had a change in how they acted, they acted just like humans grieving... Slunk around, looking for something, acting all sad... Maybe it's just me, but I definitely saw a change in them.
I feel terrible for just up and doing that to them all over again, being the main source of attention for them... I never thought leaving what most would consider pets would be this hard... I love them just like I would another family member, hell, they're who I talk to a lot of the time when I am mad... I know full well they almost positively can't understand exactly what I'm saying, but they're someone to talk to.
And, cats are smart. They seem to be able to understand at least the emotion and feeling in a voice, just as you could understand a general gist of what a person was trying to convey to you, if they were speaking a foreign language, just by the tone in their voice... I don't know what to do... And now I've went on about my cats, waay off topic, but I guess I really need to address this... This was supposed to be a happy post... Ah well. I dunno. I just feel awful about it.
It's this Friday... It seems so close now.