Ever since I told my aunt, dad and brother about me playing with toys, I feel little again, me and dad have played together and discussed toys. His friend even knows and accepts me and i can play in front of her without feeling judged. I feel so relieved and little at the same time that I don't need to hide myself anymore as a person and I can be a proper child again, dad said that he was going to make Christmas really special this year. I feel upset that my mom is gone but she was judgemental and I could never explain myself without her shouting at me and making me feel bad, but then again she might have a different response.
I thought dad was the same because dad had to defend her because she wasn't a really nice person, I am afraid to say but I love her to bits and miss her. I found out my dad has a scary exterior but inside he is a child at heart as well.
Dad had a toy box that he used for his tools and me and him exchanged the box for the beach bag I have been using as a toy box, I got a bargain there without spending a penny! I used to hide my toys under the bed but now I have them in full view, plus it was hard to keep zipping the bag up again and I was tired of rummaging in a tightly contained bag.
But the thing is, it has totally regressed me and I find it easier to use my diaper. Strange huh! I am looking to get some kiddie wall stickers for my room and I found a fairy bed sheets that I am currently kicking myself over because last time I didn't get them because my family didn't know!
Quick question: should I tell my dad about my pacifiers so I can have one in my mouth around him? So you think it's early days to tell him after 1-2 weeks after telling him I like toys?
My reasons for telling him are because I can just tell him I like how pacifiers look and feel in my mouth and if I get "caught" with one in mouth, my dad knows why. Pacifiers while they look babish, they are harmless and if he says my teeth will get bad, I will mention I have been sucking my thumb my entire life and my teeth are fine and that thumbs are more likely to ruin your teeth then pacifiers because thumbs are harder.