I am not sute where this belongs. Following my car crash 2 years ago I have been having urinary issues and pelvic issues on top of all my other pains, weakness and shaking etc since then. I have been able to recover mostly from my back pain and much of the pelvic pain and such. But I still have some urinary issues namely leaking slight to moderate amount a lot of time quite suddenly.
I saw a number of urologists and also had many bad experiences with lousy doctors and therapists. Due to urinary retention nonresponsive bladder, pelvic floor issues I had to be catheterized in fact multiple times. And on top of that I underwent many painful procedures from couple cystoscopy to urodynamics and such. Each time my penis and genitals hurt a ton. I tried to push through it all and was in large part by myself dealing with all the pain, doctors, medical bills and whole mess.
Many of doctors laughed or otherwise dismissued my urinary and pelvic complaints as did my family(whom I was very reluctant to even share with)
I was left feeling very alone and ashamed and degraded on top of all the pain I had. I ended up being depressed and developing ptsd from the car crash experience.
Working with my therapists I have been able to relieve some of those flashback of my car crash itself. I still get some but now it seem to change some.
They are largely focused and centered around my urology visits, the pain, shame and helplessness as I laid there on hospital bed having some nurse and doctor sticking a huge tube up my penis. I even recall quite vividly how the nurses laughed and joked about catching me. But I was too scared, exhausted, ashamed and in pain to do anything
Later when I finally got home I end up crying from all of that.
I have scheduled to see a new urologist to help manage my care. From the reviews I read online he seems to be pretty good. I don't expect too much from his end as those medI cation largely gives me nasty side effects.
Has anyone else ever had any flashbacks or sudden terrors/Panic to urological/medical procedure or such?