In case you didn't know my mum has been very ill and this morning she passed away. I am so shocked and I can't believe it! I am going to miss her but I am so glad she is NOT going to suffer anymore, no diabetes, no epelespy, no kidney failure, she is going to be a happy and healthy mum.
She didn't get to home to enjoy her new dog poppy, but we will enjoy poppy for her, I hope she gets a poppy in heaven. I will look after her cat ziggy for her like I have always done and I just want to cuddle everyone. More I want to really hug my nana and granddad as they are mums parents. I can't imagine what they are all feeling! My brother has been very quiet and just needs space, I will continue to be their for my family and I have promised to look after my myself, be happy and do the things I want to do in life in honour of my mum. I want her to look down at me and smile at the things I have done, I bet she would approve of me being a little as it makes me happy. I bet wearing nappies wouldn't matter to her even if I told her earlier this year because she knew she was going to die I bet.
She did her best with parenting but always preferred older children so I didn't have much of a relationship with her until 2 years ago, me and her had a good laugh and had things in common, I could tell her everything, I know she would see me now, changing my nappies, playing toys and sucking a dummy but she would be happy I chose it because she told me not to pretend to be something I am not. She enjoyed art and did some amazing pieces that I have a few of to cherish her memory. I will always remember the laughs we had and what she has taught me. We had good holidays, Christmases and times in general as a family and next Christmas is going to be hard, I am not sure if my dad will even want to do Christmas anymore now mum is gone.
Ruhe auf Frieden, Mama (RAF) Rest in Peace mum (RIP)