It has come to my attention that I can come accross the wrong way to people. Things that are false are presumed true and this bothers me. I want to be seen the right way, but I know I cannot control people's perceptions. I recognise I have a twisted perception because of depression, though I'm fighting to change that. What do you guys do when you reached the point where, you just want to give up on talking and venting but it's all you have? I just feel like if I keep venting eventually people will assume it's just for attention when you know what? To some degree we all want someone's attention. Even undivided. I'm working on doing what I can to improve but I still mess up. I really would love some advice on how to come accross better, or maybe just word things differently.
I feel as if I've disappointed people with how I am but I don't know how to change the things people want me to or that I should change. Not just on ADISC but in my day to day life and elsewhere online. Should I just say nothing but postitve things even when my brain is quite interestingly, focused on all of the negative? I am a self sabetour so it makes it difficult when I make progress. Success scares me to death because of expectations that I think I never will be able to keep up. I'm far from lazy, in fact an adult said I was the hardest working person my age he knows. I really appreciated the compliment but I didn't really believe it.
I guess what I'm saying and asking is..... what am I doing wrong that makes SOME people immediately dismiss me as a person?