It's been a while since my last post, been lurking round boards etc etc. But lately I've come across questions in my mind and thought about this board, somebody here might have something to say and after all I have no better place to post this.
Long story short (or long, lets see what happens when I start writing this..) I've finally accepted wholly the fact that traditional genders are not who I am. What's more than that, I found myself fitting more to female gender than male one, glad to have a choice of being neither though.. One of the reasons I write this here (apart from the fact I know no forums for this specific topic and the fact I've never seen community this helpful and accepting as adisc..) is it all "started" from ABDL play. When I fantasize about abdl activities it's always been me as girl. Sometimes very often when my more bdsm'ish side comes to play I could be boy but mostly girl. I love playing a little girl taken care of by mother (my gf) and while this is sexual it's also much more.
For past years I've been on the search of who I am. I've participated in pride marches dressed in female dress but never dared to call me anything. Part of me always thought that it's only sexual, only this weekend I realized that it isn't.
The reason I had started thinking it as sexual activity is the way being LG is kinda sexual for me. I thought that I wasn't anything "for real" but rather just enjoy dressing that way for kicks. After realizing it isn't so I started thinking if things are actually other way around, that my dressing female isn't related to me being LG but instead me seeing myself as girl is because of my feminine gender identity.
I'd love to hear comments about everything mentioned, one thing I'm interested in particular is the connection between LG and gender identities, is there similarities in your experiences. Also if there is somebody who is just LG (with no forcedfeminization play involved, like "a real girl" LG) that apart from that identifies as male I'd love to hear and compare to myself.
Thank you in advance