Hey Guys And Gals
So a few weeks back i decided to give up my DL side.
When i decided this i told my wife of my intentions and that i know i would have difficult days. I asked her if it would be ok for me to tell her that i am battling on those days just so that it was a way for me to cope.
My wife didnt say much but said it wasnt a problem. I know in her mind she is saying to herself that i am silly to do it. But for me and knowing the memories my nappies give her about our kids when they were babies, it would be for the best. I alos found that my nappies were pushing us apart. Our relationship means more to me than my nappies.
Anyway, It was going well until i had a bad day and wanting a nappy. Thank goodness i didnt have any in the house besides my cloth ones.
I told my wife that i am battling. Well i was at the shops when she called me to say that i shouldnt go cold turkey and i should get some for those type of days. I thought this very sweet of her but i told her if i got a new pack ill end up wearing all the time. so it would be best just to work through it.
The urge went away, but now its coming back stronger, so much so that yesterday afternoon i made the fateful mistake and put on my cloth nappy and plastic pants. kept in on until this morning. I loved every minute. And not having to get up during the night to go to the toilet was a pleasure. Although i had a terrible nights sleep. But it wasnt because of my nappy.
Now i want them more than anything.
In fact my wife and i are going to be traveling next week. Flying one way and drive back for two days back home. I have been thinking of asking my wife if i could travel with nappies. I just dont know what to do.....
I will never give up my marriage for this. Its not an option.