I was up all night and was sad because all of my online friends were offline or at work or doing something else. I'm in this habit now that I always skype with someone at night and although I found some good anime/movies to watch, soon enough I just felt sad.
I wanted to go back to a little's headspace but something in me just can't reach it anymore. At least not to the extent that I used to. I guess being little was a better idea than feeling lonely sooo I tried. I've tried to go into this headspace 2 other times this year for various reasons and although it is still comforting, its not as comforting or not nearly as needed as it used to be.
I afraid that soon enough I will be out of this lifestyle for good and its kind of a scary thought. I love the community and although I don't define myself as a little, I do believe it is a great coping strategy for me when I can reach it.
I just don't want to not be little anymore somewhere in my head. I'm blabbering....bad night, sorry. <3