*sigh*...Okay so this is the age old predicament of ABDL and many other abnormal(by societal standards) groups. I've always liked diapers and wearing them is just plain old innocent and fun. However because society deems it perverted and wrong I have to face the choice, conform and ignore my heart or giver zero fucks about what others think. Sadly it's not that simple.
I wish I could just be what I want to be, but I've just been conditioned to feel introverted about certain things. People are just so ignorant and unrelenting, as if a male wearing female attire or acting feminine wasn't bad enough for others, although not as much anymore, wearing diapers is still very stigmatized.
Hell maybe it's because I use to beat myself up as a kid because of the image I was suppose to portray just to be a man and eventually I couldn't even cry anymore. Now I look at things with a filter that makes me think "this would contradict the image I represent". You'd be surprised what people do for work on this site, one guy mentioned he was a lawyer which was coo.l That just goes to show you that you really don't know what people do in their private lives. Just imagine if a friend was in a similar group as you e.g. furry, ABDL ect. and you never even knew it.
It's also interesting and very unsuspecting that some of the "manliest" what ever that means, men can be something that totally contradicts the image of a "man".
I really hope most of you can relate to how I feel.